Why does everything happen to me

Why must everything happen to me

Ash pov.  Whole book in ash pov.
long morning head of me .. My phone is blowing up with post of people dogging my brother in Facebook . Of them disrespecting my sister name
"Ash!" My mom called me into the kitchen we live in a projects on 13 Hillman st. In New Bedford Ma  in the west side area. My brother was king of it all he ran most of the west an put fair in more then half of the city.
"Yes" I answered dry but still respectful
"I know you see all these post about your brother an sister  now I want you to leave it alone an let it go if I can't do nothing about it you can't wait her now erase that post an let these hood boys live well it last" she said
" but mamma." I said angry .
" but mamma me nothing, you no that the only thing these boys going to get out there life is jail or death now let there time come God forbid me " she said holding her mouth shut . My brother is being accused of killing a south end person name Anthony the  same name as my brother but his hood name was Cush an my brothers hood name was AB I could only think of the time my brother had faced infront of him an How he is missing more time out my life. He missed me growing up from the age of 10-14 now he's going to miss me into I'm like 23. I'm 16 .... I don't wanna grow up with out my older brother ! He's my Bestfriend an we already lost my sister.. Just soooooo much stress In my head . Now this is how my day begins mostly every day since 4 days ago when my brother got arrested .

School nbh (New Bedford high )
"Bruh fuck your brother soon as he steps out Ima come for his head " some south end kid told me as soon as I walked in the halls to go to my class
"Yeah well bitch read a book an with what gun" I shotted back I'll be damned if I let someone disrespect my brother hell no. Might not be able to on Facebook but in person it's your asses nigga .
"Bitch you can die Nexts" he replied
"Then nigga pull the trigger"
I ain't no damn fool an you might think that from me telling him to kill me but I ain't no bitch an I'm a rider for my family . I'll kill for my brother an sisters dead or alive . Now that's just how it goes Ohana means family family means you never get left behind. An even tho Teanna dead ... She will never get left behind. I was 14 when she died an I didn't no how to take it .
"Bitch you'll see"
"Yeah I hear yah nigha go read a book an get your education instead of telling girls you going to kill them" some boy named Trey say they called him sin. Now sin is fine an ill take a nice peace of him . I just look at him while he sent me a little wink . I smirked then started walking to class all cause he's hot , don't mean Ima be dating . I'm to worried about my family I don't got time to worry about no fast ass boys . I just to worried about my brother . An if that's to selfish for people to understand then I'm sorry .

An for the rest of the day i did my work an defended my brother some more .
Last period came quicker then I thought and bubby was there? Guess he got moved here . I sat down in my set an had a day dream of a flash back
Flash back
" OPEN UP ITS THE POLICE" BANG BANG BANG BANG my house door was getting hammered by a polices fist my brother jumped up an told me to hide his gun he told me he loved me an he's sorry I had to see this that I'm a strong little girl an to be better then him . I hide the gun somewhere the police could never find my back back closet it's a secret hole . Then I ran out my room an they had my brother an my mother pinned to the floor . "GET THE FUCK OFF MY MOTHER" I screamed "SHE HAS NOTHING TO FUCKING DO WITH THIS YOUS BASTARD" they let my mom go an aggressively picked my brother up "I love you mom I'll be home soon " Anthony told my mom " I love you too baby you stay strong these bastards don't got nothing on you baby I promise " Marie my mother had answered him back
Flashback over
A tear fell from my eye .
"You okay shorty" sin asked
"honestly no . A lie yes ." I answered he's question
" you can keep it real with me I ain't going to judge you " he smirked .
Idk who to trust so I just don't open up to people
"It's okay Sugga Ima be just fine " I side taken out my pencil an doing my work passing it in an waiting for the class to be over
38 minutes later an we was dismissed I got up an walk to the door when someone grabbed me an turned me around
" I know you ain't used to someone trying to be there but here Ma, this is my number Ima need you to texts me if you need me matter fact just texts me just to texts me " he said handing me a peace of paper .
I giggled "Ight maybe"
"Nah actually let me see your phone"
I gave him my phone he stored his name plan an simple sin with the cool glasses emoji witch I like most guys would put daddy or somethin . Get out an then he texted himself so he would have my number " now if you don't texts me I'll just texted you"
"Okay sin bye " I said trying to not miss my ride my friend allyce was bring me home cause it's raining but the time I went out she was no longer theree.......Ughhhhh can this day get ANY FUCKING BETTER .
"Sin beeped at me an rolled down his window "you rushed for no reason look at you you missed your ride" I just flipped him off
" come on Ma I'll bring you home " I just looked at him " come on I don't bite " I walked to the car an jumped in " I live in westlawn" I detected him
"Ight Hillman ? Or Maxfield"
"Hillman"
Okay
He brought me home an I thanked him an got out an walked inside an straight to my room. I took out my home work an completed it turned my phone on do not disturb an watch last weeks episode of empire while I cooked rice an chicken . An then I made a plat . An went back to my room to watch this weeks episode of empire an eat my food. I took my phone off do not disturb an my phone blew up from bubby .
" hey "-about 25 times
" yes "
"Wyd "
"Watching Tv what's up"
" same empire "
"Meee tooooooo😛"
We talked all night into I feel sleep on
Might just be nice to have someone to kick it with 😏 but i don't no if I'm ready for that 💯