Oh, Death.

We used to be happy...

Underline the used.

I love you so much...

And you also love me dearly...

We were happy together...

"Kageyama-kun! Let's eat together!"

"Kageyama-kun, can you teach me volleyball?"

"You are super duper awesome!! I really admire you, Kageyama-kun!"

"Ka--kageyama-kun, i---"

I love you too...

Very... Much....

I was really happy when she confessed... But also mad since i'm not the one who confess instead.

Time i spent with her seems like seconds. It flows really quick...

From highschool until grown up... I'm still playing volleyball, but its painful...

Its painful... (F/n)...

But this ball, court, play, everything is the memories im holding about her.

"Kage-- no... Tobio!!!"

"Wha---- dum--dumbass! Why you suddenly call me by my first name?!"

"Eh we are dating right?? You should call me (F/n) instead my last name too To~bi~o"

"Tch... Dumbass...."

"Hey hey hey, my first name is not dumbass! Say it with me (First), (name)*!"

"No."

It took me quite long time to call her with first name..

Wish i can do it sooner.

Step by step, i walk to her place.

Its empty as always.

Always... For these 5 years.

I walk in to the house, not a buglar. I have the keys.

No presence of living here..

I look to the right, where the living room located

".. and why are we here again?"

"Since its raining and storm outside, you are taking shelter here until you can go home!"

No response from me.

"Oh come on!! My uncle gave me a lot of volley CDs! Wanna watch it together??"

You sit in front of me, while im behind you, holding you close.

"The CDs still here.." i look to the pile of CDs in the corner of the room. In the black sack, prepared to be thrown away.

I walk straight to the kitchen and suddenly, a flash of memory cross my mind

"Happy birhday, Kageyama! Here, meat buns!"

I tilted my head

"Wha.. why meatbuns?"

"It's fine righttt... The cake i made is really a bloody failure! But i managed to make meatbuns!!"

..

"How come you manage to made meatbuns and failed with cake, dumbass.." i managed to curve a smile

Yet its painful.

Upstairs, her room.

I remember the sleepover we had in her house. All Karasuno volleyball members. Including the managers.

Boys slept downstairs. Girls slept in her room.

... Its... Really fun...

Her room got her scent..

The first thing that caught my eyes are pictures and stuff on her desk. Our photos. Two of us, with team, or her friends.

But most of it is the pictures of her and me.

There is a bouquet placed on her other desk. I walk to the desk and i see it.

A newspaper. The cover is a lifeless girl body near the lake.

I collapse on my knees and scream. Tears are pouring like rain. It keeps pouring even i want it to stop.

It hurts.. (F/n)...

In unstable state, shreds the newspaper into small pieces.

I don't want to see that fucking newpaper.

Crying. Depression. Stressed out. Sick of the world. Can't find motivation to live. No meaning living.

...

But i'll keep living. Holding every urge to take the knife or cutter to kill myself.

(F/n) can fight the urge.. she said i'm like an indirect medicine to her. So i'll live for her sake to.

Tired of crying, i collapse on her bed. Tears still pouring, soon gonna fall asleep while crying.

That moment, i decided to live there instead taking her belongings.

Her parents allowed me to own it anyway ..

Nobody own this house anymore anyway.

If i could turn back the time...

I could save her ..

Please..

Let me go back..

I want to go back..

"(F/n) ..... I miss you so much... "

..

"You said you wont leave me alone"

"I'm gonna be with you forrrrever, Tobio! Promise! Ehehe"

"You told me to always talk to you if something happened or im feeling down.."

"Oh this bruises? I fell from the stairs.. ehehe im such a klutz, aren't i?"

"You could... Tell me.. sooner... "

Eyelids heavy. Unstable condition. I fell into deep sleep.

Oh, death...

Why you seperate us so quick?

Oh, death..

Would you let me meet her?

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"What the fuck you do to (F/n) you little shit?! How the fuck you dare to hurt and kill (F/n) you little bitch?! You two fucking know you are her god damn parents?!"

That day, i punched her fucking father on his face until he bleed.

I slapped and kicked her mother until they collapsed and the police holded me. Prevent me to killing them.

I broke.

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From : (F/n)
Subject : untitled

Sorry.

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*(First), (name). Saying the name like this for example :
~ ju-min-han. Basically split the name. Tob-io.