dad wanted me to come live with him although i thought it would make my heart happy i was failed by the sight of drugs.... days in the heat because dad believed kids belonged outside until dark and adults stayed in i did not mind because inside was a nightmare dad would get mad and beat everyone and made everyone cry he became the monster in my head... he showed me pain and showed me that life sucked ass.. nights of hurting turned me to a monster... dad did not think anything of it though he thought it was okay and he was doing the right and i was doing the wrong he let his friends touch me and hurt me because he was always high and gone and he never showed me love and he abused the fact he new i would do anything to keep him around i was blinded what i use to call love by the devil and i thought it was heaven ha was i wrong when i seen the truth inside a human i once called a man.. i was so wrong and dad did not care about how bad he was hurting me he only cared about the drugs and how they made him happy in away his could not.
