Jane The Virgin

The Promise

I remember once, when I was really young around the age of 12, I made a promise to my grandma that I would not have sex until I was married. I remember my grandma organizing this ceremony thing as you might like to call it, she brought me into my room and my mum was sitting on my bed, she was filing her nails and she didn't look happy. As soon a as she saw me enter the room she said"do we really have to do this, she is only twelve" My grandma didn't take it well "no! she must learn about these things at a young age, look what happened to you!" my grandma replied loudly. I was confused at first but after i heard what my grandmother said, I was pretty sure what she was gong to say to me. My mum had me when she was 16 and I never knew my father. It's no surprise, after all they were still kids like me and he probably wasn't ready to be involved in my life. 

My grandma sat me down on a chair then she sat down on her own chair that she brought from the kitchen. She bent down and took a rose off the floor. She looked at it for a few seconds then she handed it to me. "Can you see how beautiful and pure it is" She said. I nodded. Then surprisingly, she told me scrunch it up in my hands, I did what I was told." Now, try to fix it, try to make it look like new again". I tried but i could not make it look like it was before. "I can't"  I told her. "I know, it is impossible, once the rose is scrunched up, you can not go back" she replied in a tough, intimidating tone. " It is the same when you lose your virginity, you cannot go back". My eyes widened and i could hear my mum sigh. I looked over at her and she rolled her eyes then continued to file her nails. every now and then she would look at them, blow on them, then continue filing the next nail. My grandma was also looking at her, she shook her head and made a clicking sound with her tongue. She then took my hand and looked me in the eye "listen to me" she said in a whisper. " I don't ever want you to end up like your mother, you must wait until you are happily married". I nodded. "Promise me!" she said in a slightly louder voice. "I promise" I replied. "your a good girl Jane" she put her hands over mine. " keep the rose and whenever there is a temptation just look at it and you can remember your promise" She smiled and kissed me on the forehead then she walked out of the room. I sat there on the chair for about 2 seconds before I heard my mum talk. " don't listen to a word she says sweetheart, If i hadn't ended up the way i did then I would not have you right?" "yes, mum" I replied. I told my mum that I would ignore what Grandma said but i knew deep down that I would keep this promise or at least, I would try to...

  I met Micheal on my 21st birthday. I had a Huge party and I had all my friends over and we were all drunk, especially me. My mum was certainly enjoying the party, she usually gets drunk at parties like the one we were having but she didn't purposely this time because she was supposed to be the responsible one making sure everyone stayed in line and was behaving well and so on, but that doesn't mean she wasn't having fun herself. One of our neighbors were a couple who had just had a baby and they made a noise complaint to the police, I didn't care back then but now I kinda feel bad about the whole situation. Anyway, I heard a knock at the door and I opened it, there was a man dressed up in a police uniform, he didn't look much older then me. Little did i know that he was an actual policeman. I was drunk so I wasn't really thinking when I said this "Hey Girls, we got a stripper in the house tonight!" all the girls started screaming and they began to pull his clothes off. I can't really remember what happened after that but i do remember everyone leaving just after midnight and the man staying behind to make sure i was alright. we ate some pizza and watched a couple of movies and just before he left he kissed me and we have been together ever since. 

 11 YEARS LATER (THE PRESENT)

I was in bed with Micheal and we were kissing, more like making out. I had kept my promise to my grandmother and I wasn't planning on breaking that promise any time soon. But I seemed to forget that promise because Micheal had taken his shirt off and we were rolling around and all that. He started to kiss my neck and I turned my head to the side and thats when I saw the rose on the wall. I had put it in a frame all those years ago to help preserve it for longer. maybe it was by chance, a miracle or just my imagination but a petal fell from the rose and to the bottom of the frame. either way, I knew this was getting too close to breaking my promise."Stop!" I said, raising my voice. he rolled over onto his back and lay next to me."What?" he said "oh seriously Jane! you are still serious about that promise to your grandma?". He must have seen the rose too. "Yes, when i make a promise, I keep it". He exhaled loudly and said "ok, i have to go anyway" "Why?" I replied. "I have some late night investigating to get to" (Micheal is a policeman)  "oh, then go, i don't want to be the reason you are late for work". "Thanks" he said. He got out of the bed, put his shirt on and gave me a peck on my forehead I'll see you tomorrow!" and before i knew it, he was out the door. I needed some sleep anyway I have an appointment tomorrow, and I don't want to sleep in and miss the bus.