Sui Riu

                     Sui Rui is a rain-dragon, which when in pain causes red rain, colored by its blood.  

           I wonder if people who end the lives of others feel a justification of why they did it. Is there a peculiar feeling you get when you act upon it? Satisfaction? Revenge? Money? That question started to ring in my head when I regained my memories back. It's kind of like a loop. It never fails to make me think about that question for the last few months. I attempt to make answers but I know they're not true. I'm just lying to myself to make it seem like I know it, when I truly don't. Ironically I should know right? I mean I killed people in the past, but I  never interpreted on why I did it or how I felt. I don't remember who I even kill't at that. Eh, there's no point of brainstorming made up answers that will lead to nowhere. " Obaa-san, I'm heading out to Takayama for important needs. Do you need anything?". " Yeah, I need clean rags, basil seeds, and more importantly, for you to live! Please be safe, Soku. You know that Takayama is know for murder cases and such. Remember our promise?". " Yes I know, Obaa-san." I then grab my Katana, put on my straw hat, and start to head out. " Oh yeah, Soku, remember to pack some Onigiri and water! You know it's a long journey to Takayama, I don't need you starving". She laughs, and then heads back to her little house with her little farm. " Don't worry, I'll be fine " I said faintly, and then I finally started my trip.

As day turned to night, I start to settle down by a small river and I set a fire. I cooked and ate some of the fish I caught from the river ( So I can save my Onigiri ) and I started to lay down, staring into the stars. " It's so beautiful " I whispered to myself as I get carried away by thoughts. I start to think of Obaa-san. To be honest, I don't know how I met her. I just remember laying down on a straw bed with her holding a rag on my head. " Oh my, you have awakened! Are you okay?". " Wh-wh-who are you? Who am I? Where am I?" I asked.  She laughs and says " I know you have a lot of questions, but first you must eat!" She then hands me a bowl of soup and sits down with me. As I eat, we start to talk. " You seem much better than the way I found you " she says. " What do you mean by that ?" I asked. "Well you had a stab wound around your stomach, as well as black eyes and bruises on your face. You also came down from a steep hill which meant you must've had a long fall. Its astonishing on how you even lived. Say, do you have a name?". " I-I-I don't know. I don't know anything about myself". She signs. " Well that's expected, knowing that you been knocked out for 3 weeks". " Three weeks??" I said with despair. " Yeah, I started to think that you would die". Just then, a man walked into her house. " Oh my, Fugaku!". She then hugs the man. " The boy has finally awakened". He looks at me and smiles. " That's great!" He says. " I know. Speaking of which, how was your journey? ". He then puts food, money, and goods on the table. Obaa-san Then smiles, and starts to hug even tighter. " Now, now, don't suffocate me " He said. He then gives off his roaring laughter.

I start to think about Ojii-san. He was a merchant who would travel all across Japan and brings us goods. But behind his merchant status, he used to be a Dojo trainer who taught the legendary Kenjutsu. He was a well respected man, who was powerful and nice. He was married to Obaa-san and decided to retire. But he still holds a special place for Kenjutsu.  So much that he taught me everything. For 5 straight years, we have been training together, and I learned to defend myself. During this time, I started to remember some things, like my name and age. Sometimes, we would celebrate whenever I gained my memory back. Times were happy. Then one day, Ojii-san left for, in his words, the biggest journey of all. I remember Obaa-san crying tears of joy when he left as he said " When I get back, we will never have to worry about funds again. We will finally get to live with each other without knowing if we were going to eat or not. And Soku, you can start your own Dojo and live a life you deserve". He fades away in the sunlight as we wave goodbye. We then never seen him again. I remember Obaa-san being depressed for so long, crying every night to her sleep. After 3 years of waiting, its confirmed. He's dead. When I found that out,it affected me mentally and physically. Ojii-san was like an idol to me. I thought he would never die. I guess that's the immaturity I had when I was younger. But Obaa-san took it even worse. She started to stop eating, to the point where I forced fed her. She also became sick, and I had to treat and care for her, like she did to me.  A year after wards, we got ourselves together. I remember having a silent dinner when she finally healed. And then she yelled " Let's make a promise. Promise me you won't die Soku, please promise me!" I was surprised but then I smiled.  She starts to cry and I hug her. " I promise" I said, " I promise ". She smiles and then gives her death hugs ( aka squeezing really hard ).

" Yaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwnnnnnn" . I'm must be sleepy. I should probably nap so I can get energy in order to fulfill my trip. I start to daze off, and fall asleep. I then had a dream while sleeping. But it's not a pleasant one.