OK, so I'm going to start off by telling you that I am madly and deeply in love with a boy called lets say Harry. Me and him was together for 7months, I know there's a lot of other couples out there that have been in a relationship a lot longer but I can honestly say I love him. Those 7 months I wouldn't change for the world. He was such a nice and caring lad, he always treated me right and I couldn't of asked for anyone better. Until it got to about 6months...he started to drift away and by drift away I mean he hardly replied to my texts or spoke to me in person or met me. I tried to talk to him, like I would text him at say 11am and get a reply at 5pm...I just passed it off at first, thinking he was really busy but then this carried on and on and on. I started to get suspicious and I started to get really upset about the matter and I started to assume the worst. He got close with these two girls called lets say Amy and Molly. Amy is the girl that he was most lose with, I remember once we was at school and I over herd her talking to one of her friends and reading out their conversations... At this point I was certain that he was starting to lose feelings, I mean he hadn't spoken to me, HIS AT THE TIME GIRLFRIEND, for a few days. I had tried to talk him, like i had sent him endless texts and rang him multiple times to get no answer, I know as you're reading this it might look like I'm being really clingy and over protective but i had just heard that my boyfriend was talking to Amy more than he spoke to me so obviously I'm going to get worried. Then it went around my school that Amy had a crush on Harry's best friend lets call him Sam. I was so happy, i thought ' thank god, all this time I've been over thinking and there's nothing going on!!' Then...about 3 days later i got a text off of harry saying ' can we go on a walk tomorrow, i need to talk to you about something...' we used to put 'xxx' at the end and he didn't put that, and when he didn't put that he was either mad at me or upset himself. I tried to ring him but he didn't answer, at this point i was really scared. I text him saying ' okay, I'm really scared now' he just replied with ' sorry' and that was it,i started to cry and i decided to not reply. About half an hour later he sent another text saying ' are you OK?' i replied with ' no ' and he said he'd rang me later, he did and he said that i never text him or ask to meet him or anything....LIKE OMG YOU'VE BEEN TALKING TO AMY MORE THAN YOU TALK TO ME! I DO TRY TO TALK TO YOU, YOU JUST HARDLY REPLY OR YOU REPLY 6 HOURS LATER!! And i did try to meet him, he just always said he was busy. i asked him what he wanted to do and he said ' i don't know, i just don't feel the same anymore...' i plucked up the courage and i said ' do you still love me?' he said no and i swear that fucking broke me in so many ways its unreal!! i said ' OK then, goodbye Harry' he was going to say something but i put the phone down because i didn't want to hear his voice... i didn't know what to do so i just got drunk, that didn't help one bit, if anything it made me worse i cried and cried and cried, this was a Saturday he broke up with me and the Sunday i just didn't get out of bed.... i couldn't. Monday came and we wasn't at school because we had the day off, My best friend Becky took me shopping and we went to the cinema. I had a wonderful time, we chose to watch the conjuring 2 (not even that scary) but it had the song ' cant help falling in love ' by Elvis Presley, and that was mine and Harry's song... i started to cry in the cinema and Becky just turned to me and hugged me, i couldn't thank her enough for what shes done for me, i love her soooo much!! A lot of people have helped me through this to be honest, and i couldn't thank them enough. Ive tried to forget about him, i really have but its really hard. I see him everyday at school, I see him laughing and smiling. Like yes so am i but its mostly fake. One day he looked really upset so i messaged him saying ' you don/t even have to reply to this but i just want to say I'm sorry for what everyone's saying to you, i haven't asked them to I've just blatantly told them we've split up and they've took matters into their own hands. What ever anyone has said to you isn't true, you're not a fuck boy and never in a million years will you be, you treated me lovely through out the relationship, yes i am hurt but ill get there in the end, i know you probably hate me but i just want to say if you ever need anyone to talk to I'm always here...always' i got a reply that said ' leave ' so i said ' I'm sorry ' then he said that he didn't want to talk to me so i just left it. Then about a hour later, he shared a post on Facebook about having a crush... i was like what the actual fuck... so it took him about 6 days to move on after a 7month relationship, so i thought fuck it and tried to talk to another lad but i just couldn't... i still love harry too much, and here i am still, loving and missing him...
