Anorexia Recovery

anorexia home meal plan day 1

Breakfast:(7:30am - 7:51am) five spoonful of cornflakes with 150 ml of milk with a glass of milk

Midmorning: (9:30am - 10:10am)2 crackers with butter and 30g of cheese and 200ml milk.

Lunch: (11:38am - 12:14pm)a tuna and cucumber sandwich with a 125g pot of ambrosia Devon custard.

Midafternoon:( 2:50pm - 3:15pm) 2 crackers with butter and 30g of cheese and 200ml milk.

Dinner: (5:30pm - 6:31pm) corned beef hash with broccoli and cauliflower and a 125g pot of ambrosia Devon custard.

Supper: (9:37pm - 9:48pm) 5 spoonfuls of cornflakes with 150ml milk and a glass of juice.

(8:12am) I feel so disgusting when I look in the mirror. I'm not pretty and I doubt josh will ever date me xc. I hate myself and my teeth.
(8:51am) my legs feel really weak when I'm walking and they don't like walking up the stairs.
(9:20am) I'm really anxious for my Midmorning snack cause it's got two of my fear foods on the crackers; cheese and butter and i have to have full fat milk with it. But I'm going shopping so i can try distract myself while eating it and stuff.
(11:10am) I'm scared for lunch cause it's a ready made tuna and cucumber sandwich which has like nearly 400 calories in it and it's one of my fear foods and I'm really scared to eat it. Plus I've just ate crackers and cheese and my stomach feels terrible. I'm eating like all day every few hours and it's horrible.
(12:19pm) I feel so full and disgusting and at 2:30pm I have to have another fucking snack. Can someone shoot me? I'm gonna get so fat. I feel disgusting and I still haven't got used to the feeling in my stomach. I hate it. It's horrible.
(5:38pm) I really don't want to eat this. I feel horrible and keep crying.
(6:31pm) I just finished dinner and my stomach is so full and bloated and it looks pregnant. I hate this. I hate it!
(9:58pm) I wanna get better it's just hard cause I don't wanna gain weight ;-; I feel disgusting and gross so hopefully when we'll enough I'm gonna go to the gym and try to tone my body up so I can be fit and able to kick ass xD might start using the punching bag tbh.