Clarity

Chapter o n e

Thurday, 2 22 2168

Day one of this journel. Stupid was what I thought writing in this journal everyday was. To find words to string every feeling you had in a day. What if I didn't feel anything, you'd have to lie and lying is breaking one of the Decrees. It's disrespectful to lie to someone.

here in Florencia we have to follow the Decrees so the Camaraderie can run, we are taught this at a very young age. This world is bland and I want to see a spark. But I realized that, that may not happen here.

Keep everyone safe, keep everyone calm. That's what the Regime say everyday to us in training. It also feels like the Regime are keeping something from us. I don't know why I've had this feeling since I first ever started school. It's there and hasn't gone away.

Who am I kidding I'm probably just... how did people used to say it, nuts?

Yeah I think that's how it went.

I have finally gotten to level 2 in my teaching skills, I'm finally in literature. My parents, sister, and I celebrated with a small cake to bring a bit of joy to the occasion.

Something about the old world, how people used to live is so chaotic... but beautiful. I love reading the books, and what was it called? I think music, I've only ever read lyrics that my friends sneak from the secret library. They're so vivid and I might as well just write out the whole thing here because it discribes emotions perfectly.

Days are short and quick; til the day you are served with your job requirements and start working. I for one can't wait to work in a library or with kids. Teaching the new generations of how life works and the past, present and future.

Anyways, I'm here in training in the 20 minute break jotting down stuff so I won't have to do it later, when I want rest. Or if I want to go out with Oceana today, to the park or something.

til the next time, Kataleya

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"Okay now, break is up. Back to reading the book of decrees."

The faint groans that escape from half the other students gives me a bit of a shock. Pure sarcasm, we've read this book about a dozen times and probably going to read it a dozen more. It's very vital for us to know and respect the decrees and it is literature because we're reading. I usually just zone out, look like I'm reading but really be thinking of what I could be doing. Also I'm thinking of why this collar is itching me so much, I wear it all the time why does it itch all of the sudden. but then again, my insignia is down my neck. And this is how I waste my time in training just going from thought to thought so time could go faster.

by the time I finish the 50th page I could finally leave, back home, to the sanctuary.

I'd skip plans with oceana and just try to figure out what's going on exactly I need to think of life.

it's been awhile since I've thought peacefully and thoroughly.

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Wait what. another book you say. yes, a book with a lot of planning put into it. I've thought long and hard about this one and it has a plot that sickennnnnnssss I'm telling you.

xoxo Kat