"AMANDA!!!! JESUS its been so long since I'hv seen you! How are you?! You still doing that?" Its my friend Krystal from last year. What are friends anyway? " Great!" I smiled.
" OH COOL! Lets have a great year!" She told me. To me it was just another bothere for me.
Internally Im really sick of trying, of talking, basically doing anything......nothing's going to be enough. I tried talking to the counsilor and my friends but it always turns out wrong. WRONG. They would tell me how its minor and how they face greater challenges. I mean come on! Yes I know that I'm so weak that I cant deal with things that you can deal with? But my trouble is that I am unable to see the positive side of things WHICH you can? Do you know how ENVIOUS people with depression are? That you are able to be positive when we cant? And you are basically RUBBINg it in our faces.
( anybody who feels me DM me HAHA)
1st time opening up to people 1st lesson learned: Dont ever tell anybody how you truly feel. NEVER. Why? Because They will use that opportunity to brag about themselves instead and make you feel even worst.
"SURE it would be great!" I forced a smile.
