Mom and Dad

Mom and Dad,

You wonder why I hide in my room?

I'll tell you why I hide in my room.

I hide my heart hurt from the heart hurting.

I hide my pain from those who cause it.

You took a flame to my joy, and it won't go out!

The only way the flame will disperse,

is at the end of my joy.

But you're a ship in the night.

Trying to find hope in the sea of hopelessness.

I've given up on that.

I'm hopeless.

When you find the hope you're looking for, find me,

just not before.

I don't want you to get as hopeless as me,

I want to protect you from the pain I've suffered.

Remember,

I never wanted to be out in this sea.

You pushed me. You pushed me out here.

You weren't willing to pull me back, or look for me when I went astray.

You think you see a small ship by your side.

That's not me. That is your shadow.

You never noticed my drifting afar.

When will the night end?

When will you care?

When will this stop?

Mom, Dad, When will you learn that grades are just letters? Just like Q, C, and M.

Grades don't determine your value as a person.

When your grades get degraded, you shouldn't be degraded.

So why do I hide in my room?

I hide from you.