Angel

Letter 1

I wrote her the first letter just after she left. I knew she wouldn't ever see them. She was gone. For good, she was loved. But she was gone and no one could bring her back. The first letter was coated in my tears. I was angry at her. Why would she just leave me?! But the truth was, no matter how many people told her she was beautiful and was worth it, she couldn't escape the pit that was her mind and her thoughts. Those thoughts embodied her, they were her. Guided her through every thing. No one was aware of how those thoughts were slowly killing her, until she was actually gone. I started writing letters, telling her things that I missed her by. Some were me just being mad at her, even though I would ever get the chance to actually express these things to her now. I constantly blamed myself for everything that happened. If I had been there- I could've stopped it. Or that's what I just think, I think that I could've saved her, been her hero. But in reality, she was so deep in those thoughts, that they were the only thing that could comfort her and terrify her all at once.

LETTER ONE

'I miss you. Why would you leave like this? Leaving everyone else in pain? Was this your plan? Of course not, you just wanted to escape the thoughts, the voices. Pushing you over the edge. You were perfect. You still are. Just a lost gone perfect, something I can no longer hold in my arms anymore.

And you will always be perfect.You'll always be beautiful. Our hearts will never forget you.You didn't belong here and it's become so clear why heaven called your name. And it just doesn't sound right, was it really your time? Are we dreaming? We'll never let go of you. Wish you were here, but it's becoming clear. That earth's just not the place for an angel like you. You constantly would walk in the halls like a ghost, no one noticed you. But I did, I noticed your beauty, your grace, anyone who truly looked into your eyes would get lost in them. I remember them as vividly as possible, they were a striking green- gray. The green represented your gentleness the gray held mystery. Everyone wanted to know who you were. They say that eyes are windows to the soul. But with you there was no telling what was going on. I remember our first kiss too. Your lips were perfect against mine. The lips that held a million secrets. A million secrets no one would ever know. I'd hold you in my arms when you cried, and we would stay like that until the sun came up. I'd do anything for you. I'd protect you from everyone that dared to hurt you. I'd offer as much support as I could. But there was one thing. I couldn't protect you from your thoughts. God I wish I could, but they were racing in your mind. You felt as if you were drowning, you told me. I offered help, but you said you'd be fine. That was the biggest lie I'd heard then. You were never fine, but you'd continue on your day with a bright smile that everyone loved.  But that smile died the day you went away. I was driving as fast as I could to your house, but when I got there, it was too late. It was the worst thing I had seen in my life, the love of my life was sat in a pool of her own blood. Beside you laid your razors, each delicately covered in your blood. You had dry tears on your face. I shut your eyes, picked you up and carried to the hospital. I already knew that you were dead, but I had no idea what to do. Then they took you away from me. I haven't seen you in awhile, beautiful. I miss you, I love you.

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