To be honest my life even now i don't really feel a sense of belonging. I just want to write out the sorrows of my life so that in reality i wont have any negativity in my life.
When I was 8 i was always scolded by my teachers who kept on changing my seating arrangement. I didnt had any close friends because of this. Everyone was just like a passer by. When i got placed in a group it was as if i was never welcomed. Once i was ban from going for recess for something so stupid. Not only that but i was accused of stealing and vandalism. But it was that year i realise that the world was just plain cruel.
On the same year some kid decide to trip me and run away. So many people just walked past me and only until a teacher who walk past and saw what happen decided to help me.
At home , it wasnt any better. Compared to my brother and relatives was always a norm to me. I was used to it. Not being invited to a party or "offering to pay" for someone something just so i could be their friend for the period.
Primary school was pretty much a blur. The other memories i had was consisted of me being alone, staying in class and trying to hide from people because i was afraid that they will find it funny that i was the only kid without friends.
The worst year of my life came from 2011. I was in an acceptable weight but to others i was abit different. Abit more fatter. Being called fat elephant was actually brutal. Eventhough i was never invited to parties this time people said they would never invite me to their party because i would gobble up their food. Just throughout 2012 i hear how other people were having a better time than me.
But this was just primary school. I was not prepared for what is to come during the next 4 years of my life.
