LETTING GO

Chapter 1.

Nad have you heard from Derrick.....Rita asked me with her eyes fixed beneath the cup of hot chocolate tea she was sipping. Heaven knew what she was looking at. I was deep into my own sophiscated beautiful world.
Nadineee...she shouted but my reaction was far more loud and dramatic than hers because I jumped out of my chair and the both cups of chocolate tea spilled over. Luckily her dress wasn't the victim but the magazine on the table if not she would have narrated the history of how she got 'em clothes.
     When we  had settled down couple of minutes after the irrelevant incident she asked again.
I repeat again she said giving me this stern face my mum would give me when I do something shameful well basically not that shameful to me. How is Derrick ??...I looked at her with a dry expression and was like oh well you have his digits and his social networks...why not message or rather facetime him and free my ass off his life. My expression suddenly changed from the dry look I gave her to a mean bitchy idgaf look.
In that same array her face changed from stern to half curious and half excited to extort the latest scene about my life which she had missed out.
   You would always know when Rita wants to know things. Immediately her voice changed too and she asked in the softest soothing tone ever about what happened.
Trust me that voice almost made me betray myself and tell her the truth like I always do.  I wouldn't be surprised if I hear that she has a trace of hypnotism in her.
Well I wasn't going to betray myself and tell her. I can't keep disturbing her with stuffs like this in as much as she always wants to know. I feel disgusted already  like we are sharing lives together. Sharing the same friends or almost the same friends is enough for me. Anyways I told her that nothing happened that I was just in one of my moods. I gave her a smiley face hoping she bought my lie. She looked at me with this unsure face like if she was trying to believe me or not. I knew the exact way to prevent her from asking any more questions that even the FBI would not want to ask and that way was by asking her about her boyfriend.
   Rita you should know me better than this concerning my mood swings...I was only joking honey giving her my best smile and how's Alex by the way I asked winking at which made her blush to the point where I felt her lips would separate from each other if she smiled any further.
Well since you asked am gonna tell you many stuffs Nad. You just have to prepare your ears for my story... Am  all ears I said heaving a sigh of relief that once again I succeeded in preventing her from asking any further questions.
Before she could even start talking about her recent encounters I gave out a loud yawn and she looked at me with this bitch really face and was like I haven't started and you are about to dose like girl you're one hell of a vibe killer. No silly...am listening to you its just that am just tired of sitting down here I said in between another yawn.
  Well okay..if you say so. I went to Alex's the other day and a lot went down. She was right actually about me wanting to sleep but what I heard made my ear drums wakeup with immediate effect even before my brain could process the latest update. I opened my mouth in shock and  looked at my best friend like WOW...
Nad.. Nad.. Nadine??... She said waving both hands at my face... Can you now close your mouth. Oh...I didn't realize my mouth was still open in shock. She had not even told me what happened but the way she said "a lot went down" made me think about million things happening...
I haven't even started talking and your jaws are wide open already... How about when I finish  telling you what would be your reaction?? Fainting?? Crying?? Better still dying?. Giving me the look of a college girl. Wait a second... What are you trynna say I asked trying to process her words. I didn't even know if I was curious or disappointed or shocked or even happy for her.
Lol chill out babe its not what you think but it would be it will be what you're thinking very soon.
This time I tried not to open my mouth and I glared at her like am really lost here Rita.
Maybe if you stop reacting to every single word I say I would continue my story in peace  and there wouldn't be suspenses and exaggeration like what am making things look like she said with a smirk on her face.
     Well you see....she started... I went over to his place and we were talking about stuffs and all and then he started saying dirty words and I couldn't help but blush and then he started touching me in my sensitive areas.....oh I said rolling my eyes. She ignored me and continued. You know Nad I was actually stupid to wear a gown to his house that day of all days. Lol continue I said in a tensed voice because I don't want to hear what I think went down and somehow I was excited to hear about her experience. I wouldn't deny the fact that I felt unease and somehow I was excited to experience it rather than hearing from other people. He touched me slowly,and really soft. Slowly and really soft like really really soft. It was really sensational how he caressed me like an expert and am like girl really he's older than you and older than any one in the 11th grade with us or even the oldest person in the 12th grade and you're expecting him to handle you like a freak?? Slowly and really soft she continued, slowly and really soft. Rita stop it I said half shouting and half disgusted. Lol why?? she said. Don't  you want to hear my tale? Sure I want to i said sounding uninterested but am tired of hearing the slowly and really soft part I said composing my self back to the patient listener I was in the first place. Lol you want Me to get down to the point yeah?? Hell yeah I replied.
Alright alright.. She said and continued.
He continued touching me and then his hands came for my thighs already and I was nervous as fuck. He touched my thighs half soothing half massaging and he took his hand upward till he reached my laced panties.... You're wet too soon honey he said.. Well he kissed my neck real good and he's a good kisser. Stop I interrupted... Am already feeling disgusted I admitted to her. I just want to know if you guys yunno....giving her hand gestures and facial expressions.she knew what I was talking about and acted like she was confused. She just wanted me to say it out. Fine.. did you guys have sex or just makeout?? I asked waiting for the big answer in anticipation the same way  my parents waited to hear the winner of the presidential election.
We're getting there sugar she said in a mock tone letting my hopes down. Well...he's a good kisser like I said she continued. I felt like I was in cloud 9 Nad. You need to try it. Go on with your encounter I said coldly. You can't be this way forever Nad and you know this. Alex saw my boobs she said when I tried looking at her in horror she immediately looked at the ceiling avoiding my eye contact. She was bold enough to continue her surprising story.Nad he's really romantic she said entering her own fantasy world which someone of my taste would consider boring beyond definition.
Nad...its not like he just jerked me off and removed my bra....it was a magical moment and we kept on going with the flow and that led to removing my bra. Well I guess he jerked you off your brains in the process also I said unbothered rolling eyes in despair and disgust. Rita didn't seem moved by the shot I fired directly to her face but rather she continued her tale. We made out for a while Nad she said suddenly changing her expression to a serious face which I noticed fast. Then???? What next I asked nervously. He wanted me to have sex with him and he said I would have to take protein first. Is this a joke? Wow so within a twinkle of the eye you were devowed?? I asked in anxiety. No it's not a joke Rita replied. As a matter of fact he said the protein was deep down his trousers.
   I had to check Rita's temperature to be sure she was alright and she wasn't joking because to me everything happened for the first time and she had it to the last. So you took Alex's protein? I asked in a  half mockery half irritated tone.
  Well.....she was fucking reluctant to reply and I was running out of patience but she talked finally.
I almost took it till you happened. Me?? I asked in utter shock. What do I have to do with it??
I had already unzipped his trousers and was about to see the 8th wonder that was hidden inside his shorts till your retarded ass called me to tell me that we had an emergency project to submit that was why I didn't discover the 8th wonder she said sadly. Lol okay I said with relief. At least he didn't jerk that part of book before boys from your brain when he took of your bra in the same magical way he took off your brains. At least there is still a part of you I can be proud of. We both laughed. But seriously Nadine you need to try this with Derrick or at least try something even if its just a make out and you guys don't Go deep. I can't let my best friend be stale while I explore good things.
   At this point I felt I needed to tell her the truth about Derrick. Rita there is a problem I said giving her a worried face and then she looked at me in shock and ask what the problem was. I was expecting myself to tell her the truth at this point but funny enough I found myself walking away but then she's Rita the inquisitive and she followed me.