That day, since I've been with her I've just been waiting waiting waiting for the day that she is clean. Clean, is not doing it in a while. Clean is having no one believe you, and everyone assume that this is just another time but it isn't, clean. Clean, is when your world is crumbling because for so long you depended on a drug to bring you into a reality that is comfortable because you think you can't handle reality. Clean isn't one day it's a series of days clean is a random ass day when someone realizes that you actually are saying no that your actually trying clean isn't just a choice or a lifestyle it's a fight within itself because the more and more I realize what that world actually means the more I realize one day I'm not gonna believe her and random as fuck I'm gonna realize hella time went by and she has been clean that that "one day" is finally there. That God answered my prayers. That He saved her like he did me and I'm starting to realize, Clean isn't just when you realize your done, clean is when the people around you realize your done.
