8th grade misery

How I feel

All my sorrows and loneliness all started when I got transferred away to this new school that was build and I had to leave my really good friends. I came to the new school with very few friends and the ones I had they would always leave me behind. I would feel like the third wheel half of the things they said I was clueless on the topic they were talking about. And by the time they would come to me was because there was no other choice but me to talk to. All the laughter and smiles I shed was all fake, why because I would try so hard to fit in with them I always felt like a dog to them doing the things they told me to do. I was like a shadow that is always behind someone that is never next to someone. They rarely cared or said "if I am ok, or how am I doing today" or have token care of me when I felt ill I would always be the one doing that, and they have never been there for me. For once I wish that I could be the one with a real laughter and smile I wish someone will say to me "are you ok, or how was your day," or when I am ill for someone to be by my side, and when I am down for someone to lift me up and for them to be my light when I am the darkness and guide me through. I wish that my wishes come true one day.