Meaningless Idea's

we layed there...

He got up and ran his fingers through his hair. I knew he was stressed.

"Braedyn?"

"SHUT THE FUCK UP KASEY."

He said throwing the bottle of cough syrup across the floor.

I layed there naked under his sheets. There it was. The meltdown I've been waiting for. He doesn't know it yet but he'll be the reason I finally leave, I'll have a good reason to.

"STOP YELLING." I said throwing his lamp across the room. I watched as it crashed into his mirror. Causing shards of glass to fly everywhere.

"YOU FUCKING LITTLE BITCH." He said running towards me.

I braced for impact as his body pushed me against the wall.

"HIT ME BRAEDYN." I yelled in his face.

"HIT ME LIKE YOU DO WHENEVER YOU'RE MAD. GO AHEAD, ALL I NEED IS A REASON TO LEAVE YOUR SORRY ASS. COME ON BRAE, YOU HATE ME RIGHT? YOU WANT ME TO DIE DO IT YOURSELF."

I felt something hit my face, it wasn't a Fist but the cough syrup.

"OH YOU'RE GOING TO BE A PUSSY NOW? HIT ME. BE THE MAN YOUR DAD COULDN'T BE."

There it was, his biggest button. I felt my body tense up as I knew what was to come. But instead I just heard a clank. Braedyn was on his knee's

"What have we come to kasey. Your so afraid of me you expect me to hurt you. I FUCKING LOVE YOU. YOU UNDERSTAND ME. IM IN LOVE WITH EVERY ASPECT OF YOU BUT I CAN NEVER FIX US"

I stood there. No. No

"You don't love me." I said slidding down the wall.

"You love the fact I love you. I was so consumed in your existence. But now I'm out of things to love. You ruined everything about yourself. You cut your hair, you slit your wrist. Your breath taste like vodka 24/7. Your poor complexion has been ruined by all these drugs. You've ruined yourself and frankly- me too." I was in his face whispering

"TAKE IT BACK." He said pinning me against the wall.

"Braedyn I don't love you anymore."

I felt his hand slip to my neck and I shut my eyes. I could feel myself slipping in and out of consciousness. But I wasn't passing out; I was finally free.

He let go as I started coughing, I looked down at my hand and
my mouth looked like it just started it's period.

"NO. KASEY COME BACK."

"See braedyn." I said putting on my clothes.

"The thing about drinking cough syrup when you're not sick, is you're actually sicker then you thought."

I walked out of that house and never saw him again.