disorder. that's what they call it. yet they call the very thing that was absorbing me 'nutritional' and 'healthy'
I can't win. no one can. no matter how hard I try it's just there, it wants to make me fat and ugly my mum is disgusted when she looks at me, so is my father, they look at me with such disappointment in their eyes.
I wasn't bullied or treated unfairly, no. it's just that everyone else around me is so skinny. so perfect why can't I have that? I mean their not model thin but hey I can barley make it through the door without causing a havoc.
it's like their torturing me. they can eat what ever they want and look fine where as I do much as look at food an I gain 10 pounds.
I went to lunch today with my mum, I chose the smallest thing possible and only ate half, she made me get a dessert and because I'm me, I chose the stupid chocolate fudge cake...
I was looking online and I found the '5 bite diet' you have no breakfast and only 5 bites for lunch and 5 for dinner. I'm excited for it but dreading it all the same.
when I'm in school it's like their mocking me, walking around in their skirts saying how they look so fat,
when I'm sitting here looking like a beached whale, trousers and a polo shirt that is a year to old for me...
I walk home with my best friend dreading the walk past the high school their just so skinny, and cute.
I've tried exercise. trust me I have
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but it never seems to work, weight loss pills, throwing up but it never works.
I hate it. I hate it all...
(A/N AGHHH I dunno it's a really short chapter, I'm gonna give it to Emma and see what she thinks) -Honey AKA moo
