Bleeding Heart ~ LonelyDirectioner

Chapter 1

MAJOORR EDITING CHANGING NAMES Thank you for all the reads and votes I love you all. So I'm gonna write this as some sort of story but ill be using fake names. I really hope you like this and please continue reading/voting/commenting xx

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I woke up to the sound of my alarm on a warm Monday morning. Ugh I hate Mornings, I hate the thought of having to go through another horrible and depressing day. Why didn't God take my soul last night ?!?

After a few minutes of laying around, i got out of bed and walked to my bathroom. I stood standing in front of the mirror, looking at my self in disgust.

There, standing before me wasn't the girl I used to know. This girl was a complete stranger. I don't know myself anymore, I don't know what I am capable of now.

I stepped back and started changing from my moody cow pj's into my school uniform. As I was changing I looked down at my wrists. My whole arm was covered in scars. They were finally fading and Im so glad. I don't know what I would do if anyone would have seen them.

Then I looked down to my thighs. Instead of fading scars, I saw many cuts. The fresh ones from last night were not as deep as the ones I did almost a week ago. How could I of done this do my myself. I have to stop doing this, this isn't right !

I was no longer able to look at my wounds. So I continued changing into my new uniform. I still can't believe the summer break is over, another year of bullshit and drama.

I exited the bathroom and walked back towards my bedroom. I saw my older sister Sarah, who was 21 and engaged. She gave me a dirty look when she saw me but I don't know why ?!

Once again I was stood in front of the mirror in my room, doing my hair. I just put it in a messy bun and applied some light make up. Some mascara, eye shadow and some raspberry lip balm. No matter what I did with my hair or how I did my make up, I will still look hideous, so why bother trying. I had straight, light brown hair that ended just below my shoulders. My eyes are brown, not too dark but not light either. I have high cheek bones and both my dimples show when I smiled or laughed.

I put on my fake smile and quietly muttered "Ugly bitch" before I turned away, grabbed my blazer and bag and headed downstairs to the kitchen.

" Morning" I said quietly, knowing I wouldn't get a reply or even a smile from any of the three people currently eating breakfast at the table. My mum was placing food in front of Sarah and my 11 year old brother Moshin. I looked around the kitchen and noticed that my mother had again 'forgotten' to make me some breakfast too.

I know she didn't forget, she just hated me and wanted me to starve. My whole family hated me. My dad was hardly around, he was a taxi driver and he was always at work. But when he was around, he always reminded me of how useless i was and how no body would ever want to marry me. My older brother Walid, who was 24 and married with one little boy called Billal, lived in his own house a few streets away from ours. We used to be quite close and i always thought he was the only one who loved me but when he got married to Aqsa he forgot about me. He hardly called or came to visit but when he did, it wasn't to see or talk to me. I don't know why they hated me but I knew that they defiantly did.

So without having any breakfast or speaking to anyone, I Walked out of my house and started to make my way to school. I wonder how the first day of year 11 is gonna be..

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