Second Generation (Sequel to Changing)

Chapter 4 - Ed

ED'S P.O.V -

I see her approaching the cell.

This is the fifth time she has visited me.

The fine was paid by her parents and I couldn't be more thankful.

She tells me everything about Kaitlyn and I can tell she is not happy.

She looks tired.

But what scares me the most is that she looks depressed. It is more apparent than last time. It hit her harder this time. She actually believes that no one loves her. No one wants to be with her. I will prove her wrong.

I love her. I want to be with her.

I can't say that directly because I know from experience that she won't believe me. She thinks her parents don't want her at all.

She thinks that her dads story is him trying to tell her that they never wanted her. Her mom ignoring her is a hint to leave them alone.

I can't understand why she would ever want to believe that.

I have it all planned out.

When they release me I am going to make her believe that I care about her. Kaitlyn will have to show her I care about her, and she does as well.

I will cave all of her walls in and make them crumble to the ground.

Make her forget about Liam. Make her want me as much as I want her. I can't give up on life that easily. I can't give up on her that easily.

What is going on these days?

When our parents were young, everything seemed so happy and easy.

Now, everything is dark and gloomy. People cutting them selves to get recognized, and people wanting to commit suicide because they think no one will care about them.

It sounds a lot like Violet. I hope the Kaitlyn doesn't end up like that. I would feel horrible knowing that I was the cause of that. I was the one who made her miserable because I didn't feel the same way anymore.

I techniqually fell out of love with her as she said when we broke up. If she felt that horrible about a small crush on someone else, imagine if anyone ever cheats on her precious little heart. I couldn't imagine.

I am torn.

I love Violet, but I still have very strong feelings for Kaitlyn. I need help. I am a horrible person.

I broke Violets heart by beating her boyfriend senseless and being taken away to jail when she need me.

But right before that I broke Kaitlyn's heart and made her need Violets when Violet really needed her. They can not help each other. I am the only semi-sane one in this friendship, and Kaitlyn probably doesn't want to even see me again.

I hate myself for doing this to people.

I hate people for making me hurt them unintentionally.

I get so mad at Liam. He hurts Violet and I can't stand it! She shouldn't have trusted him again after what he did to her before. I am not doing this anymore!

"Sheeran. You're out." the officer said and I breathed a breath of relief. I finally can set things straight with everyone. It felt like a year has gone by sense I actually had some fresh air.

Walking outside a girl with lavender hair immediately caught my eye. Apparently she saw me too and came running towards me. She immediately enveloped me in a giant hug. "I missed you." she said into my chest.

I ran my hand through her hair and said, "I missed you too. More than you think."

She looked up at me and smiled.

"You look like you need to tell me something." she said and pulled away from my arms.

A sudden whisp of cold air came across us and I shivered and so did she. I pulled her closer and began. "I am sorry! I shouldn't have done that to Liam. I just couldn't see my best friend get hurt again by the same guy."

It hurt to call her only my best friend. I want to be more than that.

I saw a little glint of sadness in her eyes for a split second, but they went back to happy.

"Ummm. Well, you have a lot of schoolwork, and umm." she stopped and looked at the ground, confused of what to say.

'What's wrong?' I wanted to say and then kiss her to my hearts content, and to have her kiss me back the same way. But I know that that isn't going to happen.

Instead I said, " Come on. We have some catching up to do. How about we have some fun." I wiggled my eyebrows suggestively and she giggled.

Her small and fragile giggle.

I love that about her, and everything else.

A/N

Sorry for the poor quality of this one!

I will try to make the next one longer!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIALL!!! I LOVE YOU!!!