The Average One

March 12th, 2014

4:52pm

So...I don't really know why I'm beginning this journal. I guess I'm starting it as a way of self-reflection, God knows I need it. Well, since this is for self-reflection, let me introduce myself...to nobody in particular, I guess.

My name is Greyson Hines, and I am a sophomore in high school. Not just any high school, but the worst high school in the world. Sure, I may be biased. And yes, I may be exaggerating a tad. But trust me, this school is absolutely TERRIBLE. There's cliques everywhere, and all of them are complete bitches and assholes. They'll look for any reason to bully someone, and with me being short, pale, not the most athletic, and average at best, I'm a prime target. The only thing I have going for me is intelligence and, oh yeah, that'll stop them from bullying the physically unintimidating nerd. My intelligence is just a strike against me in this school.

My home life is...unstable, to say the least. My parents have been divorced since I was in first grade, and they had split parenting until I was old enough to choose who I wanted to be with. My candidates were my alcoholic mother and my very depressed father. I chose my mother, because at least I knew that my life wouldn't be so boring and depressing. I still see my father regularly, but he just still hasn't gotten over the divorce and can't seem to keep a job. Even my mom has a stable job, and can provide for me and my siblings when she remembers to do so.

My siblings are my best friends, without a doubt. Gabby is in eighth grade and Joey is a freshman. Yeah, there for a little over three years, my parents were pretty busy. Honestly, the most embarrassing part about being bullied at my school is that my little brother sees it and sticks up for me. I hate that, but love it at the same time. Even though Joey is a year younger than me, he's about six inches taller and is part of the football team. He's the Quarterback of the junior varsity team, so he's pretty popular. Lucky son of a bitch.

Believe it or not, I actually have friends outside of my siblings too! I know, it's shocking. Want to know the biggest shock of all though? I have a girlfriend! Yes, I know! She's absolutely amazing too. To this day, I cannot fathom why she's with me. Nearly a year now, and she hasn't come to her senses and realized that she can do so much better than me...and I'd be a dumbass to let her in on that little factoid. So she can live in ignorance, while I live in bliss. In all seriousness though, Amanda is my dream girl. Smart, funny, drop dead beautiful, part of all the sports teams at the school, just everything I could ask for and even more. I think that that's why I'm a target of so much ridicule, because of the fact that I'm with the girl that everyone wants. It just eats away at some people, because they know she deserves better.

Wow, I didn't realize how much time had passed since I began writing. It kind of feels uplifting to type out my thoughts. But I've been putting off my homework for long enough now.

11:41pm

I had a girlfriend, but not anymore apparently. Great fucking timing.