Lonely

I have no friends I have no loving family sometimes I feel like I just want it all to end. There are 8 group's of people at are school in 8th grade, there are the popular, geek, nerd, stoners, fakes, goths, followers, leaders and then there's me. And I don't belong in any of those groups. I sit next to the garbage all by my self at lunch, and people always makes fun of me. So I am a loner. I live with my dad, my mom left when I was a baby and I've never heard of her since. I have no siblings, and most of the time my dad does not know what I am going through. My dad is a drunk and people always wonder why I where long sleves, its because my dad is not nice when he is drunk and he is always drunk. Every day I wonder who would miss me if I killed myself, no one would miss me and if you think that I am being over dramatic your wrong. Every night I cry myself to sleep, sometimes it takes hours to for me to finally fall a sleep. I don't eat much actually I eat once a day sometimes not even that and I weigh one hundred and two pounds but I still hate myself. I walk to school it is about a thirty minute walk and every time I walk next to someone they eather walk away or they laugh at me. I have tan skin and black long hair and I wear what I feel like wearing. Every day I walk into school I go straight to social studies with my teacher Mr. Tailem and he always encourages me to get more involved but I always make and excuse. Then I got to math with Ms. Bi*** face as I call her, she screams at everyone. Then I go to lunch and usually at lunch I just skip school, and don't go to school till the next day. Its not like anyone will notice that I'm gone. When I leave lunch I go to the park so I can think. I usually stay there till dark. In social studies at the beginning of class this new girl walked in.... She said her name was gray blueshadow and the teacher put her at my table and he never put anyone at my table. So then came lunch and gray sat with me and I was shocked. I said " are you sure you want to sit there you'll probably get made fun of" and gray said " hmmm yah I'm fine if they want to make fun of me I really don't give a f***" and she made me smile for the first time that I could remember. (A Week Later) Gray is my first actual friend finally I have someone to spill my feelings to. She is like me. (20 Years Later) and we are still stuck together like glue on glue she has opened me up to a whole new world I never EVER knew existed!