Dear mum,
I love you but I also resent you. Most of the time I always wonder why do I still love you after everything I also wonder why me. I guess its because of all of the things you went through when you had to go through a divorce with the guy who is the other reason why I'm here while taking care of your 5 year old daughter and me when I was 1. And I know you felt very depress during that moment in time but you still kept on living because of me and my sister (I'm not putting my sister's name cause she doesn't tell her name online even though she is a writer on another website) so I want to say thank you for that. But what you have put me through these past 4 years almost 5 is what caused me to become depress sure you have never seen any signs but I am depress cause of you. I started to think of cutting myself about 3 years ago but if it wasn't me getting into Harry Potter and obsessing over it I could have started cutting and then after Harry Potter "ending" (to me it didn't ended yet) I discovered One Direction when they debut their first single I ddn't obsess over them just yet not until the fall of 2011 is when I started to fall in love with them and they are still helping me not cut myself or killing myself and that's why I obsess over them not for a stupid reason but its because they are normal, kind, sweet & funny lads/guys that I just fell in love with. And then in the beginning 2012 I made a friend who helped to not cut/kill myself whenever I felt like cutting/killing me, she would talk me out of it and I'm grateful of her. And our recent argument which was sometime last month I accidentally let "I have thought of cutting and killing myself" slip out of my mouth and yet you called me stupid for being so depress to think of killing and cutting myself, let me remind you, you were once depressed because of a stinking divorce you even said you didn't love him that you never felt love for any guy and then you're calling me stupid for being depress and wanting to kill & cut myself and this is one of the reasons why I want to but I have my amazing friend who talks me out of doing so and an amazing group of lads that make me happy by just being them caused they followed their dreams, they're sweet, kind, down-to-earth, funny & love-able.
- Your Daughter
