Who am I?

Joe

                      Who am I? Hi I'm joe. I really never new who I until moved to America. That changed my life. When I came to America, I didn't know where I was really, I didn't know what I was doing in America. That's when it all happened. Depression kicked in and my life changed from all happy and jumpy to dark in my heart, quiet. I finally 6 grade and I was the odd one out. I thought of my self as a demand, devil, creep and. I think every one else did as well. I knew people from elementary but I still had hard times but they didn't even know it. Many of the people I know in school think of me as a funny and happy guy but in reality, I'm not. I'm a dark and sad kid. I call my self a kid because I know that I will never grow up and I will as ways have this dark and empty space in my heart because of the depression I suffer every single day. In my, in my dreams, I imagine me running away and living in the woods all alone, with the deadly animals waiting to attack me. I also imagine me in the mountains living there for 40 years and someone finds me and they recognized me from 6 grade. I would pretend it wasn't me and then I would run for the rocks. I darkness of the night is like the darkness in the soul. If I could I would sell my soul to anyone just to get the misery away from me. You might think I am crazy but it is true. When The depression got worse, I started cutting my self with a pencil at school and everyone thought I was a freak. They thought there was something wrong with me. But what they didn't know was that I was suffering the pain, the agony. I finally told someone about all my pain and she under stood me. One night at 12pm I had a mental break down and I texted her and she helped me so much in life. That night I was wide awake the rest of the night thinking about life, how it would be good and how it is bad. What was wired, was there was more bad things in life in my head then good things.