Dear Self

The Week Before

So... This past week... Yeah... I'm not sure how to describe it. Since today is Wednesday, I might as well start there. I have this friend from church that I really like and I was flirting with him awhile ago telling him how I thought he was cute and stuff. Eventually he is sent me a picture of him with his shirt off, and trust me, he was even hotter than I thought. A few days after that he told me that he was a little. I asked him why and he said that it seems whenever he send a picture of himself, he never gets one in return. In my mind I'm thinking "Dude, you looked hot without your shirt on, but you didn't even send a nude, so why would you expect a picture back. And plus, you don't have to get mad, you can just ask for one." But of course that's not what I told him. So I think for a little bit... and then I write him back "Awe I'm sorry you got mad. Lol but you could have just asked silly. I would be more than happy to do that for you." A few days went by before I got a response from him. His response wasn't really what I thought it would be, "No, its Ok, you don't have to if you don't want to." What?!? What kind of bipolar answer is that. You were just complaining a few days ago about not getting something that you didn't even ask for in the first place, and now you're saying no? Fine, okay, whatever. So I write him back, "Okay, that's fine."

So after that was over my mom begins to talk about me driving. I haven't gone through any classes yet and I don't have my permit/license. I asked her when she was going to teach me and she said she wouldn't, so I asked her about my grandpa and she said that he said he wouldn't do it either. So I asked her about my Uncle Russ, she said yeah that that would be fine. So we asked him the following day and he said he'd be happy to!

So next came my dad, I haven't seen him in like 3 years. And even though I haven't seen him in a few years, I've told my mom that once I turn 18, that I'll be moving back in with him and his family. With me being my mom's first child, she's a bit off about me growing up (one of the reasons why she won't teach me how to drive). So I was sitting on the couch and she asked me, "Do you still have your dad's number?". Its a good thing she wasn't looking at me, because I could feel my face turn white. " Why would she need his number?" I asked my self. "Yeah, I have it in a box in my closet on the back of a receipt." I got up and read the number to her as she dialed the number. She said thanks and pushed the call button. "She's calling him? Now? In front of me?" I thought as she waited for him to pick up. I went back to doing what I was doing, acting like I wasn't paying attention to what they might talk about. He answers the phone, "Hello," he says in a deep sleepy voice. "Hi, how are you this morning?" My mom replies cheerfully. "Well I was just sleeping, who is this?" "Oh, I'm sorry to wake you, this is Amay." (Amy is how my mom's name sounds like). "Amay who?" "Amay Forbush." She says, hoping that he'll realize who it is this time. "Emiline?" I hear him say my name, after he realized that he was talking to my mom. I smiled, they continued talking for a bit. My mom went upstairs so I want able to hear them talk anymore. By the end of the conversation, I asked her what they talked about. "I was just making sure that he was ready for you to go to his house, so you don't just show up one day on his door step without him knowing what to do with you. But he said he was ready and that he's planning on getting you a blue truck with a lift kit." My eyes widened. We talked about that the last time we talked, I'm so happy he remembered.

Now guess who wrote me back saying that he changed his mind. That's right! Clint, the guy that I was talking about with the whole picture thing. He asked "Can I ask you a question?" When I read that I was like, "OMG! Look who changed their mind." So I wrote him back, "Go for it." "Well I changed my mind about you, and I do want to see you." I was curious where this would lead to, I mean, I liked him, so why not have some fun, right? So I sent him a picture of me, just to tease him a little bit. He send me a picture of his dick and says, "Don't tease me bitch, I wanna see them tits of yours!" 0.0 I was not expecting that! Lol, and to be honest, my phone was a little wet from me licking the picture of him (don't judge me lol). So I did what I was told and sent him another picture of me, just the way he wanted it. Then he messages me back "Hey, what about me and you have some fun at church on Wednesday, with your tits and my dick in between them. Maybe your mouth can join the fun right before I cum." Another 0.0 moment. I wasn't sure what to do at that point. It sounded like fun but at the same time I was scared at getting caught, especially since we were going to be at church. I told him that I wasn't sure, and that I'll think about it and let him know when we are at church. The rest of the week was silent, unless something did happen and I just didn't pay attention since the whole church thing was in my mind. Thank God that by the time that day came around, he didn't show up for church.