Dark Adoration

Introduction

My name is Ann Riley Keller. I'm 18 years old and I am hopelessly in love with my best friend. I never wanted to be this cliche: The girl whose lusting over a guy she has no chance with. When I say no chance I mean it. It's more likely that I would win the lottery...on the moon....with Elton John sitting next to me singing Rocket Man, then for Calum to even show the slightest interest in me. It's unfair, you know? From a young age we are force fed these unrealistic ideas of love. The guy gets the girl, they kiss in the rain, they live happily ever after, and it will never ever get bad. That my friends is a load of bullshit. Here's how they world really works: 

-The Person You're head over Heels For Doesn't Know You Exist.                                                                                I know that this sounds harsh but I don't mean this in a literal sense. The person you like could be a person you see and talk to ever single day. You do not, however, exist to them as boyfriend/girlfriend material. You are just another person in there day and you are practically comparable to there family. It sucks I know. 

-Opportunities Are Constantly Missed                                                                                                                                      Humans are diffident creatures and more times than less don't openly speak about their feelings in fear of being shunned by their peers. This creates missed opportunities. So you know what I just said about the person you have the hots for not knowing of your romantic presence. Lets say you are one of the very few people who overcame that hurdle and the person you like likes you back. Whats the probability of either of you proclaiming your feelings? Just the thought of that makes my heart beat faster, my palms get a little sweaty, and my stomach is basically turning into a Olympic gymnast doing flips, twists, and turns. So I get it I do. It's not easy and most of us don't like overcoming our fears. The person we love will end up with somebody else because we don't like difficult tasks. 

-Nothing Is Ever Good For A Long Duration Of Time                                                                                                           This one is pretty self explanatory and at some point in life we all learn this.  You could feel like you're at the top of the world and then BAM just like that you've hit rock bottom. Things happen: hearts break, people die, addiction are created, sadness builds, ect. The worst part is that the world keeps going. It almost seems cruel doesn't it? You could be somewhere lying in a pool of your own tears but there are people somewhere having the best day of their lives. Why do they get happiness and you get misery?  Why doesn't everyone feel the way you do? Why do you have to pick yourself up and fake a smile so people don't know what you're going through? They should be going through the same damn thing! Life is a constant spiral of disappointments,unpredictability , and frustration. 

This is unfortunately the way the world works. There are no exceptions or cracks that you can slip through. Everyone faces difficulties. Even the rich, famous, and beautiful have something that they can not achieve.  The most common thing that all people want is love. Some achieve it some don't it all depends on how you cope with the way life works.