I'm so busy with my studies,I've been dreaming of having a scholarship in our college. I was trying to distress myself from the past hell days of having exams on our major subjects.
I decided to open my facebook, there's this one guy caught my attention. His kind of a cute guy I guess, Err I'm about to open his timeline when suddenly the head of the messenger popped-out I didn't noticed the picture so I opened it. Then there I realized he just send me a message, I don't know what to feel that time.
We kept exchanging messages until we became friends. He even told me that he fell inlove to a girl who he courted for a year but then the girl just used him.
As months passed by my feelings to him grown because of his silly jokes but my feelings doesn't matter cause his younger than me and his not interested to me.
One time, he called and I'm so excited to answer it. I even asked my instructor to excuse myself for a while. But what he told me broke my heart "Jen, you remember Alexa? guess what? We're officially ON" and I was just like "Really? oh good for you, gotta hang up now I still have classes" then I return to our room with No Emotions at all.
I don't have the right to get jealous at all, I deactivated my Facebook for the mean time. If he ask me out, I always refused it I made excuses.
After 3 months, My younger sister knocked on my room door "Tyler's downstair, his looking for you?" my heart seems like it jumped for joy cause finally he visited my house AGAIN.
it was my last step on the stairs when suddenly someone hugged me and I felt a fluid on my back, I asked myself if he is crying and I'm right.
His crying like a baby infront of me "What happened?" i asked "She choose him AGAIN, I don't know what's with him that i dont have" i just shrugged
"Maybe she's not the one for you, just let her go then" he didn't answer He looks pathetic for loving a person who can't love him back. tyler just love me I won't hurt you I will love you more, I promise. Those words wants to escape from my mouth but I don't have the guts. Until he decided to leave.
Few weeks had passed, He then recovered easily.
He courted me for almost 5 months. We've been a couple for 8 months but as time goes by his feelings fades thats when I caught him with Alexa on a restaurant laughing. They look perfect together, Alexa saw me. She stiffened for a second that's when I realized that Tyler was staring at me with a blank expression.
I removed my gaze to them and about to leave the place when someone called out my name "Jen!!" I started walking when Someone grabbed my forearm to face him
"aah Tyler haha, why?" I faked a laughed "I'm sorry, I don't love you anymore. I realized that I really can't get over with Alexa" he sincerely told me. It seems like i was stabbed many times on my heart.
" It's okay I understand" i gave him my sweetest smile then he hugged me while saying thank you until Alexa called him HE LEAVED AND CHOSE HER AGAIN!
I turned away and there my tears shed, I CRIED LIKE A BABY I LOOK PATHETIC FOR LOVING A PERSON WHO CANT LOVE ME BACK. I RISK EVERYTHING FOR THE SAKE OF OUR RELATIONSHIP BUT THEN ALL THOSE WERE USELESS CAUSE I WAS JUST HIS REBOUND WHEN THE PERSON HE LOVES WAS WITH OTHER GUYS.
You can forgive and forget, but things will never be the same.
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