"I want you to stay never go away from me... stay forever. But now... now that you're gone all I can do is pray for you. To be here beside me again Babe" I close my eyes as I finished singing or maybe reading the lyrics of stay
"Norman... why did you have to leave me?" I said again then tears run down my face
Hi I'm Levi Mae just a simple girl that's all, I really don't feel to talk about me right now because this story is about him... the one never stay beside me...
Did you ever feel left alone by someone but you still want to be with them because you don't know how to start another day knowing the fact that you don't have them anymore? Ang hirap diba.
"Babe I love you" redundantly playing to my mind... I hope he'll say it again
"Babe I miss you" I close my eyes again trying to stop this tears but I can't I really love him. But he already leave me
Flashback of all the regrets...
We are in a Long Distance Relationship for 2 years since I went to my Aunt house then be with them. I'm a college student taking up BS Accountancy... Hectic schedule? Yes. But we still manage to have communication.
"I love you Babe" I smiled knowing the fact that even if he only sees me in this small screen of the laptop I can still feel his sincere love for me
"I love you too Babe" I sincerely answered back... yes it's not a question but it's a thought that must be answered back specially to those who deserve it
"I wish you we're here" he sadly said I smile to him hoping that he could feel that I'm always be here for him even if distance is between us
"I'm always in your side Babe just close your eyes and let the love brings me into you" I smiled when he did what I said I also close my eyes too and let the tears flow when I feel his presence upon me
"I love you" we both said in chorus as we open our eyes and at last he already manage to form a sweet smile in his face...
Months passed I barely talked to him... there are times I really badly want to see him specially when I feel everyone is against me and his the only one whose not but he is busy.
When I feel that he needs me but I can't be with him and stay in his side.
"Babe it's our 3rd anniversary... but why didn't you even greet me?" I sadly said to myself... I'm still awake waiting for him to greet me even for last 2 minutes before Feb. 11 ends but after 12 hours waiting I don't even received any text and call from him
"I think he is really tired but tomorrow when I wake up I will receive a long message from him" cheering myself up before I close my eyes
"Still don't." I tried to smile but I can't...
After a month at last we manage to have time but i know there's a weird feeling inside my heart... maybe a feeling of excitement... yes yes a sign of excitement. Thought that I keep saying to myself
"Babe!" Energetically he called me I just smiled at him I don't know but this strange feeling inside my heart keep stopping me from saying anything
"Sorry for not greeting you in our anniversary... That day it was really busy day I can't manage my time to greet you sorry Babe. Ana needs me that day I need to comforted her and luckily she stopped" I bite my lip trying to stop this mouth to open because I feel that when I open it there will be sudden out burst that will happen but I think it's not effective cause suddenly...
"Oh so you're with her? Thats the reason why you are busy huh? Then you even forget to greet me haha gosh what really I am to you? Because honestly... wow you have time with others but you don't have time with me? I've waited for so long hoping that you'll greet me. Because I know you. You never forget all special occasions specially our anniversary but you did!" Frustration and anger filled me my brain and my heart
"Sorry Babe I nev..."
"Stop this." I never gave him the chance to finished what he wanted to say
"This relationship... let's end this." I wanted to bring back all the things I said but I can't.
"Please Babe... don't do this. Please I'm begging you I can't think of a life without you... Please stay by my side please" his crying I want to hug him, kiss him and wipe his tears away but I can't... and I can't pull back and change what I've already said
"Sorry. I don't think I could stay in your side again" I force my hand to close the laptop then when I already did tears run down more hardly...
"Good bye Babe" I hug the laptop hoping that it was him... hoping that it was not the last hug from him.
"I'm sorry" I said after playing back all those memories we had together and all those regrets that up until now is still fresh and hurt
"Babe please talk to me."
"Babe please stay by my side"
"Babe I love you"
"Babe I'm really sorry please come back to me"
"Babe I can't take it anymore please"
"Babe I miss you"
"I love you Babe. I want to be in your side forever" I glanced again to all his message for me when he wanted to win my heart again this message we're all block by pride and hatred
"I want to be in your side too Babe but I think you already stay with some else... hope you could be happy with her. I love you Babe. This love will stay forever..." I finally entered the message for him I've kept it for almost 2 months and now I'm ready to face that he will no longer stay with me...
It's been 3 months since I left the message for him and I don't even tried to open my Facebook means that I don't know if he replied or not... maybe he don't because he is now busy with her.
"Babe..." I sighed and close my eyes cause up until now I hear his voice calling me which is next to impossible
"How can I move on if I still hear you calling me" I cried out of frustration and sadness
"Babe." geez!!!! "Please mind concentrate! I need to finish this financial statement!" convincing my brain to focus
"I love you Babe"
"Ok I know that you really miss him but can you please move on brain and forget him for a while or maybe for lifetime? I'm tired." I bow my head after talking to my brain and stopping her for thinking about that guy but I think I need to stop my heart too because I feel that the beat became faster and faster
"Shemsss!! Heart attack na this?" I hold my heart and listen I think she's telling me something... telling me that I should look at my back but I would just see door nothing more nothing less
"Heart I'm tired... but if you said so. Ok I will" then I look back and charan I sighed no Norman standing while smiling at me
"Stay Forever"
"GOD! You are here? Ba...babe?" I'm shaking I'm crying I'm happy is this true?
"Babe" then he at last I feel his warm hug at last his staying beside me... forever.
