Clear as a Crystal

Clear as Crystal

"Why did you throw those letters away, again?" I had asked trying to get your attention. Oh, gods of Olympus, why do you have to be this gorgeous? Did you catch all the blessings, when the gods showered generosity?

You stared at me from head to toe, annoyance etched all over your handsome face.
I bowed my head, flustered at your reaction.

Am I that hideous to look at?

Am I not worthy of those manly eyes to look at?

Or you just hate me that much that even looking at me straight in the eyes was a waste of your precious time?

I made a straight face, recalling where I stand. Oh, let me introduce myself. I'm JUST an admirer of yours. I am just a girl trying for you to notice me, hoping for an inch of your attention, and still waiting for an exchange. I thought.

I was, I am, and always will hopelessly love you from a far.

Oh gods and goddesses of Olympus. Calling all names! Would anyone of you, grant me my wish for him just to love me too?

"Why do you care?" You snapped at me. I was stunned, trying to hold my tears back.

"That was my letter for you."

I absentmindedly said. My eyes turned round as I covered my mouth. I looked at your face, and your expression was unreadable.

I turned my back and run away. I slapped myself for being so foolish.

Oh My! That wasn't supposed to happen and I shouldn't have said those words. Wrong! Ugh! Shame! I really hate myself for being so stupid! I breathe in fresh air then exhaled. Calming down my nerves was always difficult for me and I mentally thanked the breathtaking view from the rooftop that's helping me.

It took all my strength and courage just to write in a piece of paper my declaration of love for you.

Couple of times thinking, will this idiotic acts bring me to you, bring me UP to where you stand, especially in your heart?

It wasn't normal for me to do this, but I considered these times that it needed desperate measures for an answer.

I was clouded by my thoughts while I was walking to the door to climb down the stairs, when I heard sounds---No, voices.

It was you. The thought of you talking to the most beautiful girl in town doesn't sicken even a bit of me, but seeing you smile as you talk to her, I was wishing for Grim Reaper to come up to me and get me out of this life. I touched my face and I felt my cheeks wet. I'm crying again because of you. When do these tears get tired?

The sparkle in your eyes while you're looking at her is slowly killing me, shredding my heart apart. Will someone please spare me from this undying heartache? I'm begging, anyone?

The gossips around the school were fast approaching in every student's ears and mine's not an exception. It was all about you and a girl. Hearing all of it demands so much pain.

You were dating the most beautiful girl in town; unfortunately that girl was my cousin. Wow. How fate loved to play games with us.

A week had past and I was trying my best to forget you but I just can't. Oh, how could this be?! I never thought that forgetting you were this awfully frustrating.

Prom is approaching in two weeks' time. I waited for you to ask me to be your date, but that was just impossible. I had no other option but reluctantly said yes to someone who had asked me to be his date.