Why did you have to leave? an leave me here to grieve. why in the hell did you keep me guessing just 7 hours before? I understand you had to go but why didn't you tell me so. I thought being together was an option, but its clear now you weren't even thinking. I use to wake up to sunshine an q cup of happy tea, but now I'm shreaking an breaking into a tiny ball of misery, an now when I wake up my shadow comes around an puts on a filter of gray shades. My grieving of tears dropping on my jeans as I sit in a room filled with 30 teens, an I walk home an go to sleep just to repeat, an repeat, an repeat. I always dream that your right there beside of me, then when I wake up your always not, I couldn't say I loved you, just know I really liked you, I liked you enough to cry an mourn an grieve after you left. 3 years is way to long to go without you, but what hurts me more is the fact ill never know if you'll come back alone. or if your thinking if me while your alone. We only met once an it's crazy how much an how fast I fell for you, but the thing is I don't think I fell for you, I fell for the idea of you. an in the end I'm not giving up I just have to accept the fact that being with you is way to hard, an that I would've been better off not knowing you at all,
~~~~Cali hale 3-19-16
