Frerard - Null (Null Trilogy Part 1)

Part 7

Bob smiled sweetly when he opened the door. "Hey, come in," he signed. I dipped my head and stepped inside his house. Bob led me up to his room and we sat on the bed together.

"So how's you and Mikey? Is that why you wanted to see me?" I inquired. He seemed to sigh.

"Yes. He wants more, Gerard. You should know what I mean by more."

"Mikey wants sex?" I regarded Bob with disbelief. "No way. Just..."

"It's true. I don't know what to do. I'm only just old enough, and Mikey's fifteen."

"I'll talk to him," I promised. "There's no way I'm letting my baby brother get away with having sex when he's barely a sophomore."

"That's what I said. I told him if you find out, you'll stab him."

"I feel like it. I know I can trust you, Bob, and I won't blame you if something does happen. You obviously do care about both me and Mikey."

"Thanks, Gerard."

"No problem. Now I just have to talk to my brother..."

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"You can't tell me what to do, Gerard!" Mikey signed frustratedly. I sighed and put more emphasis and dominance in my signing.

"Mikey, you are a sophomore! Bob is a senior! You are not fucking him!"

"Says the one who has a go at me for jerking off too loud and disturbing Mom! I won't disturb her if you let me go to Bob's and do stuff with him!"

Gerard folded his arms. "That's not the same and you know it." He sighed, moving toward the door. "You can do all the oral you want, just don't do the nasty!"

"Just go."

"Fine." I retorted indignantly, slamming the door even though I couldn't hear it. Frank was stood outside the door, looking bewildered at my angry expression. My face softened and I hugged him swiftly before signing, "sorry. Mikey and I had an argument."

"You and Mikey had an argument?" He stared at me in utter shock. "You never argue..."

"He wants to have sex with Bob. But Bob's only just old enough, Mikey isn't. I told him he has to wait."

"Is that all?" Frank grinned. "Gerard, it's not like Mikey or Bob will get pregnant or something. Chill out. If it happens, it happens."

"What?!" Gerard's mouth fell open ever so slightly. "This is a big deal!"

"It's not, Gee. Bob's clean, he's a virgin, and so is Mikey."

"Frank! Seriously? You're siding with him now?!"

"No, of course not! I think you should just let him decide for himself!"

Gerard scowled at him. "Come back to me when you have morals."

"Gee, no! Wait!"

I'd already locked myself in my room by the time Frank signed after me. I flopped down onto my bed as the small vibrations of Frank banging on the door traversed through me. I curled up under the covers and attempted to clear my mind of all stress and protection of Mikey. I had been wrong to snap at Frank, but I was still too angry to apologise yet. I just wanted to protect Mikey, that was all. I hadn't been too unfair... Right?

I sighed and flung the covers away, going to the door where Frank was still stood sulking, a sadness in his eyes. Had I really hurt him that much?

Yes, you did, Gerard. You told him to come back with you when you had morals, but what about your own morals, you idiot?!

"Frankie," I began. He shook his head and turned away.

"No, Gerard," I saw him sign. "I don't have enough morals to be with you."

"Frank please..."

"No... I want an apology. But I don't want a feeble one. I want you to mean it. And I know you won't yet."

I sighed and nodded. "Why did you come here anyway?"

"I...I was going to ask you a very important question. But I'm not ready now."

"I'm sorry about ruining that."

"Yeah, alright," Frank began walking back out of my house and I ran to the window to watch him strop off down the drive, sighing sadly. I began to sulk to my room and bumped into Mikey.

"What happened? Did he want sex with you and you wouldn't let him?" Mikey signed, scowling.

"No," I signed back. "We argued about you."

Mikey stared at me, a hint of guilt showing on his face before I retired to my bedroom once more, alone with my thoughts.