Never, Always (Nicholas Hoult)

Chapter 19: "Lets get lost."

"No, no there's not. I'm actually not hungry."

"Oh. Would you like to stay here then."

"To be honest? Not really. Can we go out or something? Not to dinner of course, but just...out?" I was making probably the stupidest requests.

He looked at the ground, thinking. "Well...where would you want to go?"

I sighed, shrugging. "I don't know. I'm so bad at choosing these things."

"Alright, let's go." He stood up, gently pulling at me hand eagerly.

I laughed, standing. "What's your idea?"

"I don't know. Let's drive and get lost, find something. I don't mind." My smile grew to mirror his. He pulled me to his car, but I stopped, grabbing my camera.

He looked at me, somewhat puzzled. "You're into photography?"

"Ever since I was 15."

"Wow, I never knew that about you. Do you have a portfolio?" he asked, seeming interested.

I blushed slightly, murmuring "Yes, I do."

"Can you bring it?"

I looked at him, startled. "Uh, why?"

"I want to see your pictures." he said, his blue eyes bright.

"Fine. I'll bring my pictures if you model for me."

His eyes went from bright to wide. "What?!"

"You heard me." I grinned, giggling "I know you're a model as well."

"Yea, but I don't know."

"Pleeaassee?" I begged, giving him my best puppy eyes.

He raised his eyebrows at me, as if to say "Do I have to?"

"Come on." I said, going into my closet and grabbing my portfolio, film, and Fujifilm camera from my dresser. He opened the door for me and I walked through, thanking him. I slipped into my Toms as Nicholas opened the door for me again. He was so sweet, never allowing me to open doors or anything. It really was adorable.

As I was walking down my walkway, I felt hands around my legs as I was whisked into the air. I screeched, laughing as I realized Nicholas had taken me into his arms. "Nicholas!" I whined, and he mocked me by saying my name back in the same tone.

He brought my over to his car, opening the door and setting me down gently, careful to not hit my head on the door. I kissed his cheek and his eyes glowed, and I felt a warmth in my stomach, knowing my eyes were shining just as bright. I set my camera and portfolio in my lap, clicking my seatbelt into place and waiting for him to start the car. When he had finally started the car, I decided to ask him where we were going.

He just laughed. "Silly, we're going to get lost."

"Wow, that makes sense."

"You're so sarcastic."

"If I am anything I am sarcastic!" I retorted, laughter gleaming in my eyes. I flipped the visor down, checking my face quickly in the mirror. I didn't know what I was checking, but I did it anyway.

"Hey babe?" Nicholas asked, seeming cautious.

"Yes, what is it?"

"Why, uh, why do you wear makeup?"

I bit my lip, sucking in a breath and feeling my eyebrows shoot up and down. "Well that's complicated."

"We've got time, we're currently trying to get lost, remember?"

I shrugged. "I always loved makeup. I always got into my mother's makeup bag. Then when I started doing theatre, I would use my makeup daily. I'm quite good at it. Then when I turned 12 or so, I realized that I wasn't the prettiest flower in the garden. I bought much more makeup, and now I've got a collection. I mean, it just helps me feel more confident."

He looked thoughtfully at the road. "You don't think you're beautiful?"

"Babe, let's no-"

"No." he drove the car to the side of the highway and I squeaked. He opened his door and walked around the car until he was at my side. I hoped he wasn't angry, he seemed it. But when he unlocked my door and opened it his eyes were soft. Thank God. He held his hand out for mine and I took it reluctantly. Pulling me out of the car, he stood me in front of him and took my face in his hands and kissed me. Full on. "You're beautiful." he whispered when he separated from me.

"Nicholas..."

"No. Stop. Whoever told you that you weren't is a liar. You're perfect. You're the most gorgeous woman I have ever seen, and I've seen so many women, celebrities included. Your eyes and the way they sparkle, your hair and the way it flows, your lips and the way you kiss me, your nose and the way it crinkles when you don't like something, your freckles and the way they sprinkle across your nose, your skin even though it isn't flawless, your entire self. I've seen you near naked, and everything about you is perfect. You have curves, lovely hips. Your hands and the way they fit into mine, your legs and the way you cross them underneath yourself, your little feet that look so adorable when your padding across a floor. You. Are. Perfect." he murmured to me, his forehead leaning against mine.

I felt tears meet the corner of my eyes. "Nicholas, that is the most beautiful thing anyone has ever said to me."

"It's just the truth." he replied simply, his eyes searching mine to see that I had understand. I gave a smile, kissing him softly. I wished he didn't tell me that. I feel beautiful sometimes, but when I look in the mirror I just don't see what Nicholas has told me.

"Thank you." I murmured. He smiled at me, and let go of me so I can climb back into my seat. Do I really sit differently than others? I looked down, laughing softly. I do.

He starts up the car again, driving down the road and making a turn onto an exit I've never heard of.

"Whoa, where are we?" I asked, trying to think how long we've been driving.

"I don't know, we're starting to get lost!" he said excitedly, as though he has completed a portion of a puzzle.

"Success!" I laughed, and he started making random turns until I gasped and pointed "Nicholas, it's perfect!"

He pulled over to the side of the road and I jumped out before he could open the door for me, eager to start taking pictures. I checked my phone; we were on the road for a little over 30 minutes.

I had told Nicholas to stop at a forest like thing, with tall arching trees that cast shadows over the dirt floor. Little bushes sprouted at random spots, and sometimes you could see a flower or two. "Breathtaking." I said, and he wrapped his arms around my waist, adding "Not as beautiful as you." making my cheeks flush crimson.

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Hello my flowers. I know, I said I'd update. I lied. Ill have another update up in three days time. Thanks!