Perfectly Unperfect

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Definition of Perfect: make (something) completely free from faults or defects, or as close to such a condition as possible.

   

Many people believe I am perfect but I don't think my life matches this definition. My name is Melody Granger, I'm 17 years old and I go to Beacon Hills High School. I am class president, I'm dating Blaze the captain of the football team (he never told me his real name), and my life is pretty much perfect. Unless you ask me.

Me and my boyfriend, Blaze, have been together since 9th grade. If you have him, you have me that’s just how we work. Lately, many people have been telling me that Blaze isn’t as perfect as he makes himself out to be. Clearly, their just jealous of what we have so they have stoop down to a shade throwing level. I have been seeing him less than I usually do but I mean he is on the football team. Even one day I went over to his house and he smelt like perfume, I just assumed it was his mother. But, even on the days he doesn’t have practice he seems to be drifting away. I could blame his best friend taking all his time, but I have a feeling that Blaze is the real problem here. I love him though, I can’t possibly let him go.

My parents, I have no idea what I’m going to do with them. I believe that they love me but I’m not sure about my father. My father has been in and out of rehab for a while now, trying to get sober. Lately, I have noticed that even after he comes back after a couple months or so he is back to his old ways. My mother constantly tells me to not worry about it, to stay in a child's place. I mean yes I am a child but does she not understand she is my mother. My boyfriend tells me I should go talk to somebody, but where would I start? My perfect lifestyle can’t be jeopardized because of my parent’s weird way of showing affection. So, every since my dad started acting this way my motto has always been: Fake It till you Make It. Personally, so far I’ve been doing pretty well.

In school, my social life is something many girls envy me for. Who wouldn’t want to be a star athlete, or date the captain of the football team, or have every girl want to be her, and every boy want to date her? I think it’s a pretty clear answer. But something I don’t understand is Adam Strike, Blaze’s bestfriend. He seems to be the only boy, alive in that school that doesn’t fall for me when I blow a kiss their way. Adam has been Blaze’s bestfriend for as long as they can remember, so I don’t know if that is why Adam doesn’t make a move. I am close with Adam because he is a close friend of mine, and he tutors me in math so we have time to be alone. But he acts like he doesn’t like the time we spend, or maybe Blaze is telling him things. Sometimes I wonder that maybe if Blaze and Adam weren’t friends maybe that would change how Adam feels. To be honest I really don’t know, maybe there's a reason Adam doesn’t feel the same as every boy in school does. He could secretly be my knight in shining armor… wow, I can’t believe I just said that.