An Even Fifteen (Fili x reader)

(15) To See Her Smile

I studied my brother. "What do you mean, Kee?"

"You always were the dimwitted one," Kili rolled his eyes. "Let me spell it out for you. She's a beautiful young woman, with a heart of gold and a soft spot for her creatures. She tolerates me at my worst, which shows that she has an steady head, and she obviously likes you, which shows moderately good taste. She would be good for you." He crossed his arms and raised his brow, but I stayed silent. He huffed at me before continuing. "What I mean is that she deserves better because she's your One, and this plan of yours will be a good step in the courting direction."

I sputtered, unsure how to respond to my brother, so observant of a sudden. "She can't be my One! She... It's not possible!"

Kili smiled wryly. "If my One is an elf, yours could certainly be a mortal maiden raised by the craziest wizard Middle Earth has ever seen. You can't take your eyes off of her, Fee. Don't think I haven't noticed."

My lips tugged upwards reluctantly. I could not deny the truth of his statements, but it felt too soon to acknowledge her as mine. "How did you know Tauriel was your One?" I hated to be asking my younger brother of all people, but it seemed the Three had a wicked sense of humor.

"It helped that she saved my life," Kili said with a smirk that faded as he recalled the pain of that time, and of their parting. "Mostly I just feel incomplete without her. I couldn't take my eyes off of her in Mirkwood. Now, she is in all of my thoughts. I can't dream or hope without including her. She's the other half of my soul." He shrugged, almost embarrassed by this display of emotion. We were both quick to laugh, but of the two of us he had a harder time addressing the more serious things in life.

"I wish I could bring her back to you," I said softly, hating to see my brother in pain.

"You can't, Fee." Kili huffed bitterly. "You cannot fix this. Nor should you." He studied me with seriousness I had not seen in him before. "You cannot keep taking care of me. I am grown now, and I have found my One, even if she will not have me. It is time for me to stand on my own two feet, and time for you to take care of yourself and your One. You do like Y/N, don't you?"

I nodded blankly, shocked by my little brother's sudden maturity--when had he grown up?--and more than a little disturbed by what he had said. The words came pouring out of me unbidden, made free by my surprise. "Her eyes are so expressive. You can see everything she thinks in them. And the care she has for those rabbits-- she has such a tender heart. But she will brook no nonsense." I laughed, caught up now in my thoughts of her. "She is willing to call you out for wrongdoing, but she has the bearing of a queen that might make you glad to be reprimanded. When she talks, it's like the music of the mountain breeze. And she listens as if you're he only one in the world, as if every word you say is a seam of Mithril newly discovered."

"No, brother. I think that look of hers may just be for you." Kili's eyes twinkled with bittersweet joy. "You've got it bad already."

I snorted. "I suppose I have." Sighing, I leaned back in my chair and studied the ceiling. "Do you think Uncle will approve?"

"Not in his current state. He would only let you marry a gold statue now, I think," Kili said wryly.

"A sad honeymoon that would make." I tried to make a joke out of it, and Kili laughed, but we were both too worried about Thorin to laugh for long.

"I think he would not disapprove, if he were in his right mind," Kili finally answered. "And I'll certainly take the brunt of his wrath for my choice. You'll be the relief of Durin's line, taking up with a mortal maiden, while I shame it with my love for an Elf."

"Do not talk so," I said gruffly, unwilling to entertain such thoughts. "You borrow trouble before it comes. Besides, we should be worrying about finding the Arkenstone and keeping the mountain, not moaning about our love lives."

Kili nodded. "But you started it," he sang tauntingly, and I laughed as I followed him out of the office, tucking my parchment into my belt pouch. For all my speech-making, I knew I could not rest until I had done something for Y/N and started down the path of our courtship.

Hopefully, the first step would be a success.

A/N: Fili's POV! Ah, this was so much fun to write. And look how the romance blossoms! But what is he planning for his fair lady-love? Would you guys like more chapters from his perspective? Please help me out on this one-- it may change some of the chapters I'm writing right now.

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--RA

Khuzdul Translations:
caragu rukhs: "orc dung"