I HATE SNOW!

Katherine

Katherine

"STOP IT KATHERINE! STOP IT!" Cam yells at me furiously. "CAM WHY ARE WE HAVING THIS FIGHT! I CAN'T HANDLE THIS ANYMORE!" I shouted back as I feel my face start to turn red. My eyes burned with a sour taste. I pushed them back. Hid them. I could not be weak. "KATHERINE YOU ARE WONDERFUL! I CANT SEE WHY YOU DID THIS TO ME!" He replies. I cant hold them back! Tears roll down my cheeks and I feel so alone yet Cam is still in the room. I feel betrayed but blamed for it all. I mean it was my fault I got revenge but she deserved it HOW DARE SHE? But Cam makes me feel like the argument is my fault. Yes, yes I was evil but I only did it because I love him and he doesn't deserve it. I never felt this way when it comes to Cam. I look at his expression. Mad but protective at the same time. "NO CAM SHE DESERVED IT! I HAD NO OTHER INTENTIONS THAN TO HELP YOU! I JUST GOT REVENGE FOR YOU! I HELPED! JUST GO! I HELPED AND FOR THAT YOU HATE ME!? I DON'T NEED YOU AS A FRIEND IF WHEN I DO YOU A FAVOUR YOU SUDDENLY HATE ME!" I say furiously as I hear my own footsteps. My feet take me back and forth and I feel the wooden floor board. The squeaking sound drives me crazy. They make me want to scream. It's too loud in hear. The tears continue to roll down my red cheeks as the room grows louder and louder, hotter and hotter and basically worse and worse. I can't decide. Am I mad or sad? Angry or shattered. My emotions are tumbling around and I feel crushed. I can't understand the feeling inside me. Was it really my fault? I wish the room could just be quiet. So I actually would be able to think! I feel the heat generating in my body and the sweat runs down my forehead. I look at Cam. I look at his expression. "KAT YOU ARE FORGETING ONE THING! I NEVER ASK FOR YOUR HELP! I WAS GOING TO END IT BUT I CAN DO THAT MYSELF I DON'T NEED YOUR SCHEEMES!" He screams as the protective expression fades. I know him. His eyes explain. He is hurt. But so am I! "FINE!" I answer and then he just says "fine" calmly this time but I know it hurts. I hurt him. How could I do this? I pull my hand through my sticky hair and feel the curls bounce around. He crosses the room swiftly as the floorboards squeak loudly. They are the only thing heard now in the almost completely silent room. Wish come true. To seconds to think. What should I say? I think no more as Cam drags my attention up from the floor and on to him. Before he opens the door he gives me one last look and says "Is this what it has really come to? A fight about," he pauses, looks at me, it feels like eternity before he finish then sentence with one tiny word, "Selin?" but the word hurts.

I feel my heart breaking shattering into a million tiny pieces as he says her name. I think my chest is about to explode. No actually I think I'm going to explode. I press against the wooden floor board as it releases a tiny sound. The room feels so empty now that he left. I stress around the room with the disgusting smell of sweat. I try to calm down. To think. I think about the last word he said. The last word hurt. It hurt the most. Out of all of them. Out of all the words he has EVER said to me it hurt the most. It's funny how one word can have such a powerful effect on people. My mind feels closed. It's too full. A window needs to be opened I declare. I open it. It taste so cold out. I gaze out into the white fluffiness. Its so perfect just lying there calmly. But as I stare I feel chills crawl up my back and start to shiver. The shivering soon becomes shaking. And just like that I collapse.

Soon I awaken from my short nap. Or really it wasn't a nap. I passed out. Its snows fault. I still love snow but I am very sensitive to it. Snow makes me feel so good. Cam hates snow though. "STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM!" I scream. I then get the feeling that somebody actually might get worried if I scream. A new idea pops into my head. And trust me this one is better than my last one which is to say opening the window. My feet drag me to my bed as I lie down. Shivering I pull a blanket over myself and just think.

Wait I'm getting ahead of myself, let me just explain what that was all about. Cam is my world. First things first, Cam is not my boyfriend. He is my best friend. Wait no, he's not my best he is the best friend you could ask for like ever. Better than me. Better than anyone. He is caring, brave, sweet, nice, loving, strong (both inside and out), adventuress, I could go on forever but I think you get the idea I mean his basically the best. So you must be wondering why he's not my boyfriend. Yes it has crossed my mind, I mean he's completely gorges but no, that's not the way it was, and going to be. He is boyfriend material but that's not the way neither of us want it. This one of the few things I am 100% sure of. And he just broke up with Selin anyway. We are and will stay best friends forever. Tills then end I will love him. I guess this sound l like I'm an 8 year old but really it's true. We have always been friends' and never dating. End of that discussion. Yes I know what your think, but I simply do not care what you think. This is about me not you. Let's just focus on Cams appearance instead. Cam has his father's structure, wide, strong, tall and muscular. Even though he has his father's structure he looks like his mother quite a lot too. Naturally tan skin, the skin I dreamed of, Curly coconut brown hair and dark wonderful eyes. I could stare into them forever. Just understand him through his eyes. We have that connection. Cam is the literally the best person I have ever met.

I am nothing special. I am plain boring and just really dull. When I say this I mean my personality AND appearance. Like both. The only good feature I have are my eyes. They are clear green and my mother always used say they "opened up my soul". I don't know about that. I mean she was almost always right but I thought I was a preserved person. I have really annoying hair. I always wanted to cut it short but mother always said no, and now that she is gone I will keep my hair long just for her. My hair is crazy. Like really crazy and black. Black like coal. Not brown. It is black. Black and has these tiny natural curls. My skin is dry and "snow white" as my mother would always say. Basically I'm pale. Im kind of short. I think I am like 163cm. Cam says my postures is bad and makes me look even shorter but honestly I don't mind. If I would describe my personality in one word it would be stubborn. I think I got that from mom. That is me. See I told you I am BORING.

Selin. Bitch. Why does she have to live? She hurt Cam. Selin is at the top of school. Acts innocent but is perfection and is really a bad girl. I hate her even though she is so damn perfect. Blonde, blue eyes, tan, perfect body, just everything. She is not the stereotypical stupid Blonde though that's, the worst part. She is super ambitious and really intelligent. Wait why am I saying she's so amazing, she's not. I hate her remember. She is a bitch. A perfect one though. And so manipulative. Her hobby is probably tricking people. She was found making out with Marcus. And apparently this wasn't the first time. She cheated. Not anybody though. She cheated on CAM! The nicest person in the world! He did everything for her and she treated him so horribly, like he was trash. She is evil. So I might have gotten revenge, like I made a scheme and followed it. Even though Cam never knew. That's why he was mad.

Basically what I did was I went to her house. I rang the doorbell and as planned Selin and Marcus were standing their together, the rumors were true. So they stared at me. I took a few steps back. I stood there breathing heavily. I took out my egg carton. Maybe I went too far, but I had bought 3 dozens of eggs. The coldness of the egg took me by surprise. I took aim. And before I threw it I screamed "BITCH!" I hit Selin in the face. I saw the egg crash on her face and heard her scream helplessly. "HEADSHOT!" I screamed again. A small smug smile crossed my face as I reached for another. The smell of egg made me nauseas but it was worth it. I took the egg and was just about to throw it at Selin and Marcus but they shut the door. As planned no parents came out. They were away. I told you I made the perfect plan. I threw almost every single egg at the enormous yet enchanting house. I was just about to throw the last one when I got an Idea. I put the egg just on the doorstep hoping that when Marcus walked out the next day he would step on it.

That's what I did. That's why Cam hates me. That's why my life is messed up. That's why Cam was mad.