Random Poems, Thoughts, and Letters

Father

When I was young I looked up to you.
But you pushed me away,
Left me behind,
And now I know we are through.

You are not the father I wished to have.
You left me broken inside,
Falling apart,
And split in half.

Because of you
I'm scared to get close.
I won't let them in
And I tell them to leave me alone.

I wish I was able to open my eyes.
See that they're here for me
And always right by my side.

Now that I'm older,
I'm trying to come to peace
With the invisible scars
That you have left me.

It's hard for me to let people in.
For fear of being hurt,
Or even broken again.

So when I run into a problem
Or a bump in the road,
I push them away
And tell them to go home.

I'd rather run from my problems
And be all alone
Then keep them here
And see my breaking bones.

You are not the father I imagined to have.
You did this to me.
Now that you're gone,
I hope you are glad.

I wish you could see
All the damage you've done.
I'm starting to make peace
With what I've become.

My world is brighter now.
I feel more alive
No longer down.

The ones that I love,
I'll bring them closer again.
I must thank you now
for the damage you've done.

Father,
you've made me a stronger person,
Regardless of who I've become.

-L