Love You Good-bye

Chapter 4

I am so so so so soooo sorry. I will try to update on a regular basis
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Its been one week.

One week since I saw Louis and that blonde full on snogging in his dressing room. One week since all the "rumours" started. One week since my whole world fell apart. Who am I kidding? He was my world. He is my world.

I haven't really been in the mood to do much. But I mean, who would after something like that? Definitely not someone who was or is madly in love.

I've barely eaten in the past 7 days. I haven't been in the mood, like I said earlier. I've been laying in bed staring at my ceiling for about 45 minutes now, contemplating wether or not to get out of bed and do something productive.

I sit up, sighing as I do so. The feeling of emptiness and pain overweighs anything else I'm feeling right now.  I groggily get out of bed, and pad over to my washroom.

I take a look in the mirror and physically cringe. I look absolutely horrible. My hair is in a nest at the top of my head, my face is pale, dark rings surrounding my eyes. I look like I have no life to me.

I'm so sick of moping around, but it's the only thing I can do right now. I feel so drained, physically and emotionally. I turn on the water and wait for it to heat up impatiently, as I do so, I peel if my clothes and put them in the hamper. As soon as the water is the right temperature, I step in letting the warm water run down my body. It instantly relaxes me, as if it's someone giving me a big warm hug.

There now please please don't hate me. You guys are my little guppies