Save Me

It Aint Easy Ch.1 Insert.

Stepping out into blazing hot downtown heat, I put my hand up to my face shielding my eyes from the sun as I walked down 3rd street to the store. Whilst walking, I kept my head low avoiding the sun and the intimidating stares of all the men and even some women. I wouldn't say they hated on me cause I had nothing to hate on but they were envious of my looks that's about it.

"Say love come hea'" I looked over my shoulder at the  dude that I could not stand he  grabbed my upper arm and turned me around. I smacked my lips and yanked my arm away from him.

"Get cha grimy ass on out my face dude" I said continuing to walk.

"Nah let's talk ma, I miss you.. I miss this pussy too" he said walking up on me and sticking his hand in between my legs, he  licked his lips that were turning black from smoking so much. I yanked my arm away from him and backed  up.

"You sho wa'nt missing me when you was fuckin the life out my ol' loose pussy herpes havin ass mo' in exchange fa a dumb ass burga' both of yall prolly got some so stay the fuck away from me " I snapped and stomped off. I guess he got the picture cause he only shook his head but didn't bother me any longer.

I hated him too, both of those bitches were foul as fuck for that. It disgusted me to know that he actually slept with her and I had caught them. I did expect something like that from her but not him. And to make matters worse, they continued on after I left.

I continued on my journey to the store but  stopped once I saw her getting out of her white on white Mercedes Benz. One leg peaked out the car clad in white skin tight skinny  jeans with A black red bottom pump. as the other came out she stood up and closed the door. She had on a black Bustier pushing up her already DD titties. She didn't pay attention to anyone as she slipped on her Gucci over sized shades and licked her fire red lips. She had a face full of flawless make up but the only thing you could see was her perfectly arched eyebrows and winged liner. Her long auburn 28 inch Malaysia hair was straightened hanging loosely down her back touching the top of  her round ass and two huge diamond studs kissed her earlobes shining against the sun along with the matching bracelet she wore. The only thing I could do was stare and admire.
Her status just screamed boss bitch without her having to utter a single word.
When she came around she grabbed the attention of everyone in her path but no one complained because she was that bitch.

I had seen her around a few times, she never said anything to anyone who wasn't in her circle but I admired the bitch. I wanted to be just like her but I was always too scared to utter one word to her, in this Hood she was like a holy Grail  and every female kissed her ass while they niggas tried desperately to get some of her ass.

She turned her head and looked at me just staring at her, I went to turn away and make my way inside of the store but the sound of her voice stopped me.

"What are you lookin at? " she asked with a mean mug. I raised my eyebrows and looked behind me

"You talking to me?" I asked. She nodded as she slid her glasses on top of her head and made her way over to me. My heart beat sped up and I immediately got nervous. There was so many questions I wanted to ask this woman. 

"Uh-uh" I said looking around.

"Baybeh is you retarded or somethin? " she asked curiously, I shook my head no frowning at the fact that I was letting this girl who was only a few years older then me intimidate me.

"No, I ain't retarded I'm just not use ta otha' females talkin ta me. Usually they talked about me" I said honestly. She chuckled showcasing her white teeth that were slightly crooked at the bottom.

"I don't blame them.. but what were you lookin at, you was just starin like a creep" she said folding her arms. I sighed and wiped my forehead of the sweat that started to come from it being so hot out here.

"I'm sorry, I just be thinkin and shit.." I shrugged. She raised her eyebrows and leaned against the side of the store like she was interested in holding a conversation with me. It was hot as fuck out here and I just wanted to go in the store snatch a few things and maybe go chill at the lake but if I could find out how to be like her, I'd stay in this damn sun until my chocolate skin turned charcoal.

"Is that so?"

"Mhmm" I nodded while chewing on my finger nail. She frowned and smacked my hand down causing me to mug her.

"Don't do that " she said, I raised both of my eyebrows but didn't say anything about it.
I suddenly looked down feeling embarrassed by the way I looked compared to her. I was a bum and she was a queen, I couldn't compare but I wanted to. I dusted imaginary lint off my white tank top and looked at everything but her.

I felt  her put her manicured nails on my cheek as she turned my face to look at her.

"Whats ya name ?" She asked.

"Leah" I said biting my bottom lip. She nodded as she studied my face.

"And what is it that cha want from me Leah"

"I want what watchu got, I wanna get on " I said honestly. I wanted to do whatever it is that she did because it had to be good in order for her to be stunting on everything like she did.
I wanted that and I wanted the respect. I was tired of these niggas and hoes joking on me. I wanted them to bow down. 

"Well.. " she said trailing off as she looked around then back to me.

"What would you do? And how far are you willing to go to get what you want?" At those words I felt excitement bubble inside of me. She didn't say the exact words that I wanted her to say but in other words she was saying she would get me on.

The only thing I was seeing was dollar signs in my eyes. I was gonna make it to the top.

"Anything I'll do whatever it takes.... I wanna be like you"

At those words a devious smirk appeared on her face as she nodded her head.

Once I got into this lifestyle, I'll admit those were the words that never should have left my lips.
I was so infatuated with her lifestyle and I was so obsessed with  wanting to get on top that when I said I'd do whatever it takes.. I actually had to do whatever.

Sometimes all things that seems good isn't and in this situation you'll understand why.

I wanted her life so badly I'd even stoop so low as to take another person's life to prove it . But then again you'd do anything if your life ain't easy.