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Stuff that im confused about

Right so I've been wanting to do a chapter about this for a while now.

Stuff about myself that I'm confused about and I haven't told my parents.

Number one:

My religion. Right, so my whole family is Catholic, but I don't follow that religion. I think I'm an atheist, but I don't believe in God and do believe in Satan. Does that change anything? Like, supposedly an atheist is a "non-believer", but does it change anything whether you believe in one but not the other?

Number two:

My sexuality. Up until like last year I thought I was just an ally. But then I started exploring a bit more and found out I liked girls too, so I thought I was bisexual. Then recently I read up a bit more and found out I was 'supposedly' panromantic, but since last month or so I've been thinking. I don't really find attraction in boys anymore. Apart from one or two, but they are fictional. I asked my ex-girlfriend about this, and she thinks that shouldn't count because they are fictional, therefore it's not a real crush. But if it's like real feelings for a fictional character, does that change your sexuality at all?

Number three:

I think I might be genderfluid, but dominantly female. I find myself being more involved in male activities then I am to female, whilst also being fine with being female. On some days I find that I feel I want to hang out with my male friends and be all jokey and "masculine", but on other days I just want to hang out with my female friends and gossip and giggle. Should I be concerned about this at all at such a young age? I really hope when I grow a bit older I'll be able to figure this out.