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by mgcliffo

by mgcliffo

Cara's POV

"yeah, okay. love you too mom, bye." i said talking to my mom on the phone while walking in circles around my dorm room. i realized just how much i do that while talking on the phone. i threw it on my bed and threw myself alongside with it. i looked around my room and saw an empty bed, i'm supposed to be meeting my roommate today. i came a bit earlier than everyone else along with a couple other people because school doesn't really start until tomorrow and not everyone has gotten a dorm room.
i got off the bed and decided to enjoy the space i had to myself one last time by doing a handstand against the door and jumping on the other girls bed, she probably won't even be here until like later this afterno-

"hey um.. is that my bed?" the brunette said walking through the door. i'm really a natural when it comes to embarrassing myself. i froze and slowly and awkwardly removed myself and went on my bed while saying "why yes it is...sorry."
"its fine, i'm kendall." she smiled and started putting her many things down.
"i'm cara. sorry we had to meet in such a weird way." i laughed, trying to ease the light tension.
"haha, no its fine." i went further on my bed and watched her as she put more of her things down and unzipped her bags. she was really pretty, no gorgeous actually. i admired the way her curves looked in her mini denim shorts and maroon coloured crop top. damn, i thought to myself. i smiled then stopped in fear of her catching my creepy gaze. i noticed she had an american accent but then remembered that i'm the british girl in america..
she turned around and said "so how long have you been here? how's the school like? i haven't seen anything but the stairs i took to get here."
"oh the school's pretty nice actually, would you like me to show you around?"
"yeah sure, that'd be great!" her positive attitude made me immediately feel comfortable around her.
we got out of our room and went outside to visit the actual school building since the dorms were in a different establishment. it was pretty hot and i already regretted wearing sweatpants with a white t-shirt and a snapback while she was wearing round sunglasses in her summer outfit.

"ladies first." i said opening the door for her, she giggled and got in. she took a minute to just stop and look around because the place was pretty huge.
"yeah i know." i said. i walked in front of her to lead the way and we took the stairs, where gave us the view of the cafeteria, to go see the classrooms.
while walking up the stairs and looking down, i thought about how i would probably be throwing myself down there by the second semester after a mental breakdown of stress. we reached the top of the stairs where we walked in a hallway with only a couple people putting things in their lockers. "do you know where yours is?" i asked her. "yeah i'm locker 207."
"oh hey i'm locker 209!" i said.

i showed her around the school, and every classroom, hallway, bathroom and even the freaking janitors closet. I just wanted to spend the day with her. we went to the cafeteria or 'food court' as some people call it and she ate a salad while I ate a burger with no shame.
"are you like on a diet or something?"
"no, i just like to try to stay in shape."
"well.. you're missing out!" i waved my burger in her face and she slapped my hand away and laughed.
"ha, no thanks i'm good."

a couple hours later, i was trying to take a nap alone in our room after a long day of walking around in the summer heat. kendall was arranging her locker and i've already done mine so i stayed in. i changed into my pyjamas even though it was only 3:30pm but i was already done with the day. i laid on top of my bed and was half asleep and half awake. i could feel the light shining through the window giving my body a warm embrace. i felt a sinking feeling i couldn't properly identify in my heart but i ignored it and tried to fall asleep.
(y/n) came to mind... i thought of the last few moments we spent together on our trip and i thought of the time we fell asleep outside under the stars since we were denied entrance to our hotel room. the memories made me feel happy yet sad at the same time. i've been avoiding thinking about her since i got here because i somehow feel like i messed up. i really complicated our friendship by kissing her in that airport. it's not like i regret it...i just didn't think it through. she must think i'm such a jerk for ignoring her after it happened. the sinking feeling deepened and got heavier with the weight of my guilt. i shouldn't even be feeling this way, she probably just thought of it as a friendly kiss..
i forced my body to get up to open the window so fresh air could get in. i climbed back in bed and fell asleep.

- march 6th 2016