The truth

Do you believe in love at first sight?

Day 1:
I'm not really sure what to put here. Not sure if I want to share this with the world or if I should just kept it to myself. It's been forever since I was able to see her, touch her or even say her name without crying. It's kinda weird you know, how the love of your life could change into your greatest fear in the blink of an  eye. In order to understand it I guess you have to listen to my story. But remember, there's always 3 sides to a story: My side, Her side and the truth. Which one will you believe? 

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It all started in the 9th grade. Wait where is my manners? My name is Rosie and this is how I got to the place I am today. Now, before you get all judgey no I didn't end up on the corner or in a strip club (although I really want to). You'll just have to read to find out. Anyways, where was I?
Oh yea, it all started in 9th grade. I liked this boy Jason for most of summer school. He kind of reminded me of Edward from twilight, with his brown eyes, pale skin and hair color. I don't know, maybe that was why I fell for him. But I was most of the shy quiet, doesn't really say what's on her mind kind of girl so I never really told him til it was too late. I ended up being his friend and as his friend it was my job to make sure his girlfriend was good right? Right. So like a regular good friend I was there when he needed advice which so happened to be about his girlfriend.
"Rosie can I ask you something?"
"Yea sure Jason"
"Is it weird if a girl doesn't want to kiss you in public?"
"It kinda depends on the girl to be honest. Who is she?"
"Her name is Alex."
"Oh she's in my science class, I don't know her that well but I'll find out for you."
"Thanks Rosie."
"No problem, that's what friends are for."
I mean that is what friends are for right? To help their friend achieve happiness even if it means causing their self pain? Ha, well if it's not then I guess I was never a friend to anyone.

The next day I walked into 3rd period shaking. For you see, no matter how hard I try to be confident I never will be for I know that I well never be at the level of other girls. Anyways, as I walked in I saw her. I've only been in this class for like 3 days so I never really looked at her but there she was. Stunning, glowing whatever you want to call it, she was perfect. And she was sitting by herself so why not sit next to her right? Boy, was that the biggest mistake of my life.
"Hi I don't know if you know me or not but I'm Rosie."
"Hi."
*um....rude* "What's your name?"
"Alex."
"Well ok then."
How was I suppose to make friends with that? My first instinct was "this bitch" but then after a few days we became friends. Well according to her we didn't become friends til 10th grade but that's later in the story. Where was I? Oh yea, so we sat together everyday at lunch and everyday in third, I even sat with her in math sometimes. Pretty soon, her and Jason broke up but that didn't bother me for I no longer like him. I didn't even like him with her, which was weird cause I didn't like her in that way. You see, I never like a girl before and I definitely wasn't going to start in high school. Boy was I wrong. Let's not forget someone else that is semi important to this story:Manny. Just listen out for this name ok?
"Hey Lex."
"Lex?"
"Yea short for Alex"
"Um ok...."
"Do you have Kik?" (Yes I lived in a time with Kik, is that a crime?)
"For what?"
"So we can talk duh."
"Ok... it's Rodriguez09"
"Kk cool, I'll text you later"
After that we started texting each other. It was weird at first but pretty soon I got used to it. She went from being this bitch to actually being a friend and caring about me. She cared about my past and present, cared when I had cut myself and most of all she made me happy. I told my best friend Shelly about it and she swore I had a crush on Alex. I mean I did but I wasn't ready to face. Shelly gave me courage to tell Alex.
On kik:
R: Hey
A:Hi
R:Can I tell you something?
A: Sure
R: Actually never mind.
A: You know I hate when you do that. Tell me.
R:.......
R:
R:.......
A: Just tell me already.
R:Ugh ok, but you can't act different after I tell you
A: Ok, tell me.
R: I like you.
That took all my strength to be honest. She started typing but I deleted the app. I mean the answer will be there when I open it so it's ok right? I told her on a Saturday. That way she could think about it and more importantly I wouldn't see her the next day so I wouldn't be embarrassed. But after an hour I had to know. I opened the app and her text was the first to pop up.
A: I know.
I KNOW? That it's? I waited an hour for that? Yup, she's truly a bitch. Like if you dont feel the same then ok fine but "I know" ugh thanks cause I totally know what the fuck that means. I didn't know what to say so I just left it there. Shelly tried to help but there was no point.  I was sad. I didn't cry though because that wasn't a valid reason but it did kind of hurt, I guess. I go to school Monday and I'm talking to my other best friend Victoria aka Vicky. Turns out that her ex, Manny (who is also my friend), was dating Alex. And guess who she told about my little crush? Ding Ding Ding!!! Manny. He walked her to class so it was no longer me and her. He picked her up, sat with her at lunch and all this other stuff. I couldn't be around it so I just stopped talking to her. I even stopped sitting next to her in class. It funny cause the reason I stopped talking to her was the reason we started talking again:Manny.
Lunch room:
"Rosie, Alex wants you."
"For what?"
"I don't know, I just know that she wants you"
"I'll be back guys."
*walks over to Alex table*
"Yes?"
"Huh?"
"Manny said you wanted me."
"I didn't."
"Ok bye."
*grabs my arm*
When she grabbed my arm I felt her cold hands and it sent shivers through my body. I missed her touch, her smile and just her in general. Even though it'd only been a week, it felt like a lifetime. I mean I had no reason to be mad at her, I wasn't mad at you. I was said that she was his and not mine. I was sad that I wasn't the one kissing her goodbye, telling her how much she meant to me and I wasn't the one putting a smile on her face. But I guess friendship will have to do.
"Sure Lex."
After that, Manny told me how he was sorry and stuff but it wasn't his fault. He made her happy and that's all I cared about.

Do you believe in love at first sight?