No Strings Attached (Harry Styles)

Chapter TwentyOne

"Harry" she whispers just above audible

"What ? What do you have to say ?"

"It wasn't like that .. You were gone and I felt alone.." She starts but I just can't endure this any longer. How can she possibly be blaming this on me, when she basically cheated?

"No , Don't fucking throw this shit on me.. This 'I'm innocent and the victim and this is all a result of what you did' because its not going to fucking work" I yell at the top of my lungs , I was making my point across. Red flashing through my eyes , as my heart pumped out of my chest, my lungs felt as if a 100 pound dumb bell was holding them down.. Breathing becoming something of a struggle. This all because of fucking Niall but here she is defending him because he's oblivious and didn't know.

"Harry this could have been prevented if you would have just.."

Is she seriously going to keep on blaming me for this bullshit ?

"Harry stop" she yells , what the fuck? Did I just knock down and entire dish set on the floor. I was trying to avoid this dark side of me but it just can't be tamed , I've grown possessive over her.. I'm infatuated by her. She's the only thing that matters now, she's the only thing that takes up my time and pumps throughout my body. No one can get between us , if That little shit thinks he's going to get between us , he's got another fucking thing coming.

"Where are you going?" She yells after me

"To find the piece of shit and beat some sense into him" I yell back , ruffling through my pockets desperately looking for my mobil keys.

"Harry stop, there's something you should know" she cries out desperately , as much as I want to turn around and cradle her delegate and flimsy body , I can't.. All I see now is red and I can't trust myself. The last time I was this angry was in music class when I hurt her and I can't do that again. The way her orbs shrunk in fear , the way her body trembled , the way the color drained from her skin.. Leaving her pale and almost ghost like. It took apart of me and thats a place I really don't want to turn to once again. I didn't know my own strength and thats something that startles not only the people around me but myself as well.

"Not right now Abby , I'm not really in the right mood to talk.. All I want to do is beat the shit out of that little prick" I finally managed to get ahold of my keys but as I unlocked my vehicle and fastened my seat belt , the words that rolled out of her mouth unexpectedly took a tole in what I wanted to do next. It numbed me completely. I had no idea what I would do next, the anger was drained from inside me and now transformed into .. Hurt ?

"I asked him to kiss me.. It wasn't him , And it wasn't just once but twice. So if anyone deserves to get their shit beaten out of them its me. I should be the one being hurt, not him , he did nothing wrong"

I was irresponsive , how would or could one respond to the love of their life confessing to having a couple snogs with one of their bestest mates since they were lads.

"Harry please speak to me" she pleas , as much as I tried , the words couldn't be formed , the only thing that proved to her that I wasn't a corps or paralyzed from shock was the salty substance trickling down my orbs and hitting my lap. I have never cried over a girl. I'm Harry Styles. Have I been dumb enough to fall in love before ? Yes. But crying over a girl.. Never. Until now because she's worth my tears , she's worth getting on a plane and traveling half away across the globe to try and fix us , she's worth giving up my dream , shes worth everything I have ever worked for but most of all she's worth taking my heart and slamming it against the concrete and me to keep fighting for her even after she's completely broken me down. I just thought it was the same way with her. I just thought her heart raced when she saw me or I showed her one of my famous cheeky smiles or when I kiss her , lick her and bite her in the way I know she likes because thats what happens to me. I thought her stomach churned when her orbs met mine or when I said the words 'I Love You' and vise versa. Maybe she's just a better actress then I had known... Maybe this was her plan all along to have me fall completely head over heals for her, leaving her with complete control over my body or my actions and then tearing my heart from my chest and rolling over it with her own vehicle. Maybe this wasn't meant to be anything more than just 'Friends With Benefits' , such a cliché title that I guess she grew attached too.

"Harry , I'm sorry , I really am-" was all I was able to hear before my actions came in handy and I came back to life. I drove off as I took one last look at the broken girl laying on the concrete. As much as I wanted to just drive away and forget her , I couldn't because I can't envision him wrapping his arms around her because I was the one hurting her. Not again anyway. I had to be the one that was there for her because it kills me to think that she would turn to anyone else. Especially not him. I make a swift U-turn and head down towards the familiar rode , there she lay in the side walk , like all life was taken forcefully from her and it pained me even more that I brought her that pain.

"Are you alone?" I ask and she just nods not even meeting my pleading orbs. I make my way out of my vehicle and before I know it my princess is cradled up in my arms as her head lay on my shoulder.

"I can't let you grief on your own , god knows what could happen" I whisper as I enter her flat and sit on the couch , same position as we had been standing.

"What does this mean?" She asks after a comfortable since had been drawn for quit a while.

"I don't know" I whisper and pull her in closer , I loved the way her heat radiated onto my skin and arose my goosebumps.

"I love you" she promises as her orbs seem to become heavy and soon are shielded from my sight.

"I love you" I assure pulling a strand of hair from her forehead and kissing her small yet perfect nose. The things I would do for the love of my life never cease to amaze me.