I never knew what it felt like to have a broken heart. I couldn't picture anyone breaking it the way it happens in movies but let me simply say that it straight up hurts. I kept telling my friends it wouldn't ever happen because I knew we would last. Turns out you should take your friend's advice more often.
I didn't think someone you loved would turn on you and betray you in the worst way possible. I didn't know someone who said they loved you could throw everything away for one stupid night. I guess our minds think differently and do not understand what is right or wrong. Loving someone else is wrong.
I know this won't get read at all but this is here for whoever feels like that they have tried all that they can but still don't know what you're doing. It is a weird and tough situation but you can feel a little better at least before it can get worse.
You remember the things you want to forget more than you remember the good things. Good memories are vague--- it's not easy to fill in the blanks and you wonder if anything you have experienced has been a good thing. This is probably getting boring but honestly what does it matter? Everything else is just as boring and what I am typing at this very moment can mean nothing to you at all. And that's okay.
It's okay to feel hurt. It's okay to cry when you're sad. It's okay to talk to someone about it. It's okay to be human. Nobody in this world has the right to make you feel bad about yourself but if they do then it's okay.
You are not alone.
