What Is Like There

prologue

           ~TRIGGER WARNING~
     "ALEXIS,ALEXIS!" I was running into her house I had just gotten a text from her saying, He's gone therefore I need to be. She wasn't your typical girl. She had bad depression and has tried to commit suicide.
     As I was running down the street I heard a faint meowing of a cat,a barking of a dog. None of that mattered at the moment all that mattered was I getting to her house before anything happened. She was always scaring everyone with threats of doing it, she never meant them. Today, today was different instead of her usual perky self she was closed off and very slow moving. Sprinting to her house I knew exactly where the spare house key was I grabbed it and unlocked her house. Her parents weren't home. She was home alone, well besides her sister in the basement. Her sister was seven years old and didn't know what was going on she was hysterical. She was screaming at me and she wasnt laughing she was crying
    "She's in the bathroom. She's throwing up and I saw alot of blood."  
     As a good friend I was I ran upstairs to her bathroom and looked inside. There she was she was in her bathtub not moving nor breathing. I ran over to her side and said "Baby come back, I was fool to let you walk away." She wasn't coming back to me and I knew it.
    Her sister walked in and said "Whats wrong with her?"
    I didn't know what to say but, "I dont know" I couldn't tell her, her sister is dead. I was crying more then I ever had in my life. She was gone and I knew, but only I knew it and the whole world would say that they cared but they all were lieing
   All I saw was her finger pointing somewhere. I looked over and saw in blood written on the mirror it big letters it said LOOK DOWN so I looked down and saw a phone and a piece of paper. It was a handwritten note from Alexis.
Daria,
           You maybe be thinking how the heck did she know I would be reading this. Let me tell you before I sent the text I wrote this and knowing you I you would come and try to save me. Daria I miss you already and I just wat you to know that pain dose end and you will get through this and even when it all gets hard you should just say fuck it and move on. Daria there will be a day when all your pain ends and that day starts today. I might not be there for you ever again but I will be here to listen like I always have. You are a growing young girl and dont let others get you down this will be hard I know that but all this shit that your feeling now will end and dont ever tell yourself other wise. You are greatly loved and missed. Now for the main reason anyone else would be reading you want to know the why the how and the who. Well let me tell you all I have dropped hints you all thought I would never do it well let me tell you. Obviously you were wrong. You never cared to ask if I was okay. You only cared to ask so whats number six in the homework or do you have food or why are you even here. Let me tell you that hurt all of that hurt and well I was ready to leave and I have been for a while.
             Sincerely. Alexis
I finished the letter and grabbed the phone I called 9-1-1 I knew why she put it there and I'm not going to tell that was our thing. I walked through her house and saw something out of place. I walked to her room door and cracked it open and cried there it was her room was trashed everything was everywhere. I walked over to her window it was cracked and on the floor next to her window a little piece of glass. It was covered in blood. I found one of the killers. I walked over to her nightstand and saw pictures of her ex boyfriend everywhere and I saw a bloody bottle a bottle of pills. I found the second killer. I walked around to her closet which has everything everywhere nothing to interesting to you guys.
    "Where is she?" I looked over and it was a medical personal.
    "In the bathroom" I said somberly
    "Are you-"
    "Just do your damn job and leave me alone" There are you happy I broke tears everywhere. Then out of the corner of my eye I saw her desk and it was all messy as everything else in her room but one of the drawer was closed. Out of an instinct I opened it. Inside was a bunch of photos of Alexis and I. I found one of the necklaces that I gave her. I grabbed the necklace and photos and walked out of her room passed the bathroom and out of the door. I had my composer and my sanity with no tears. I got home and slept the rest of the night without a single thought of her.