Anger

Heartbreak

"Hannah, you're too angry. We just can't be friends anymore, Leaandra means more to me than you do.", as I walked to lunch I felt tears and anger rise to my face. I wasn't sure if I was suffering from a case of anger or despair, until I felt tears begin to cascade down my face. Grace, this perfect being, I was nothing to her now.   I sat at a lunch table, away from her, my heart still pounding from the impending panic attack that was to come. My heart just beginning to yearn for this delicate being, my princess. I cursed myself, my impulses, my entire existence, for my illness now ruled me. This god forsaken depression now had consumed the entirety of whom I was once before. Running to the bathroom I sobbed, collapsing into the tiled corner. As I contemplated my life, I ran my fingers across my belt, looking to the frame atop the stall doors. I begged to God for a way out, a way to end this pain for I cannot bear this I am not strong enough. Just as I considered how much my life truly did mean to anyone, the principal walked in. "Are you okay Hannah? Do you need to visit the counselor?" I couldn't contain myself for I was angry at this world, at this life as I screamed," No you fucking bitch! I don't need no goddamn counselor, they ain't do shit." Mrs. McGee apologized and turned to go about her way, as she did I thought about Grace, the girl I had loved since the day I met her in the first grade. She had long ombre red hair, with entrancing hazel eyes that sparkled like that of stars no matter how hidden they were beneath her thick black framed glasses. Grace was a curvy girl, yet she looked like a vintage pin-up girl, with her wide hips and ample breasts, and thin red lips as well as her arched eyebrows. Grace was what many would describe as an angel sent from the lord above, she was so kind, and beautiful too. She was the type of young woman that was so understanding, in such a state of perfection that some days you needed the upmost self control as to not kiss her. For this, this girl was my princess, my angel.