Remember Her

I Remember Her

I've never met a such self conscious girl in my life, until her.

I watched her pick out every flaw she thought she had about herself. "Too fat," she'd say, "Not tall enough,". I sat back and watched. Not knowing what to say or do. Her mind so far behind. Nothing but bad thoughts about herself got through to her.

I remember seeing her for the first time. Her green eyes scanning the halls quickly, hoping no one saw her. But, I did. I saw her. I saw her for who she was. Not for what she wanted to be.

I remember the guy she waisted so much time on. The guy, she changed so much about herself to impress him. For nothing. Nothing was good enough for him.

I remember watching her fall apart in front of me. Her thoughts turning her brain into goo. I remember watching the same guy she changed for, sit back and laugh. The same guy who swore he'd love her no matter what, was the same guy, who left her broken.

I remember trying to comfort her. I remember trying to hold her as she pushed me away. Physically and figuratively.

I remember the moments I shared with her. The good, the bad, all of them. I remember leaving.

I remember the girl, who hated herself as much as she hated the world.

I remember making a promise to her, and breaking it.

I remember watching the green sparkle, that I loved so much, leave her eyes, as she kept her head down in the halls, trying to avoid me.

I remember seeing why she hated herself so much. I saw all her flaws in a single moment. Her big nose, her thighs and how they touched when she walked, I saw her scarred arms, I saw the mole she hated so much up by her left eye. I saw it all.

I remember that it hurt. It hurt loving her. It hurt to know, she's no longer happy since I left.

I left, like everyone else she loves.

I remember her.

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AUTHORS NOTE:

Hello, my names Taylor! And I wrote this little story about something I hold dear to me. I wrote it months ago, and decided to share it with you guys. I know the transitions are terrible, but they're meant to be. Kinda like you're just pouring it all out on paper. As I did before I put it on here.

So I hope you enjoy. Please vote if you enjoyed it, and leave me a comment on what you think!