Save Me

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We eventually ended up watching in the distance as it took four fire trucks and two hours to put the shit out, but by then the house was damn near ashed.

I looked back at Navaeh, who just stared at us quietly with a curious look on ha face. I smiled and reached back pinching ha cheek.

"Les' get  cha home, whea' you belong la baybeh "

Justine

I laid on my bed with Moni on one side of me and E laying at the foot of the bed while Royalty lay cuddled into my side sleeping. I looked down at her and sighed while lightly pushing her curls out of her face. Her nose scrunched up and she turned her head causing me to chuckle.

"Moni I'm scared" I said as I slipped my hand under my t shirt and rubbed my stomach slightly. She lifted up and raised her eyebrows.

"Why baby girl what's wrong? " she asked her voice laced with concern.

"Wha-what if something happened to them? It'll be all my fault. Or-- what if he's on his way and she ends up hating me,I couldn't live with that. Yes she's only a child but still... I feel like I'll fail her more then I already have. I can't do this, I'm not meant to be a mother "

I  swallowed the lump in my throat as I sat up some voicing the thoughts that rushed through my head as the time got later and August took longer to come.

"Awwe baby don't say that, once you see her again it'll be like she never left your arms. She'll love you so stop doubting yourself, you did what you had to do for her and if you know my brother like I do. You should know that he's gonna make sure not a hair on her head is harmed. Trust me Jay, you gotta walk by faith" she said. I looked up and nodded.

"Uh" we both looked at E who has finally turned her attention from the movie and was looking at her phone funny.

"what's up E" I asked. She gave a sheepish smile then hopped  up and put on her bunny slippers.

"I'm gonna go check On Mel nem before they burn August's house down" she said.

"Y'all wanna come"

"No I think I'll just stay and watch lady  bug she shouldn't be out this late." I said shaking my head.

"You sure Jay, do you want one of us to stay with you" Monica asked. I waved her off and  stood up to walk them out.

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine, I got it. Now  go ahead before his ass ends up having to live with me. " I chuckled lightly.

They nodded and headed for the door.

"Ohh and tell future brother in law I'll meet him soon " I said.

"Will do!" E grinned then shut the door behind her. I locked all four of the locks and set both alarms before walking  back upstairs.

Guess I'll just shower and cook some food

I thought to myself.

Going into my room, I checked to make sure Royalty was still sleep-- she was, so  I went straight into the bathroom and cut the water steamy hot, adding dove raspberry  bubble bath I let the tub fill up while I got clothes.

I took out my purple bra and panties along with some black  Adidas spandex shorts and a random white crop top, gathering everything I rushed into the bathroom just in time. The tub was filled almost all the way.

I took my curly hair out the two buns, And it fell halfway pass my shoulders.  
  I dimmed the bathroom lights then stripped out of my clothes and stepped in the water. It burned like hell for a second but my stress filled body immediately began to relax. I sighed closing my eyes and dipping my head under just to wet my hair.