It was October 5 when Lucy mother had kicked out Lucy father because she thought it was the best thing to do. My name is Lucy and I'm 14 years old I have a smaller brother he's 10 years old I live with my single mother. My father and mother got a divorce and even though I wished they were still together. He decided to make a mistake two times and my mom didn't want to live that life anymore and she thought it was best to kick him out if he was gonna be doing his mistakes over and over. Before my father left he didn't really show my brother or me that much love from him and he still hasn't shown us love. I hate when I see girls posting on social media daddy's little princess I wish I could post pictures of me and my father but we hardly take pictures or talk. My mother has shown me her love she's always there when I need her and I'm glad for having her in my life. Even though my brother and I get mad at each other I still like to show him love because my dad can't show it to him love. I try to be happy but sometimes it just hits me how my father not really there for me I wish he was there for me but so engines we all wish something we can't get I mean I could get that wish one day but when's that day gonna come ? Is it when I'm older ? Or is it never ? I'm always wishing that they can get back together but things happen for a reason right ? We still see my father only when he has time but does not feel the same when we see him he suppose to be sending time with us but he does not really send time with us. When he says he loves us I start thinking does he really love us because if he does how come he does not really show it I need him to show us that he loves us not just say. Words speak louder than actions and his actions look like he does love us but not that much if he could only show us more love then I will know that he actually loves us.
My mother raised us as my father and mother even though we still see my dad but doesn't feel the same. My mother was always there for my brother and me when we needed something my mother there when we were sick my mother there we feel sad my mother there first day of school my mother there and my father where was he at ? My mother has two jobs to support us and even though we don't really see her she still tries to be there for us. I'm forever grateful for having a mother/father like her showing us love even though we don't really see her. If it wasn't for her I wouldn't be who I am right now my mother is very strong and brave and she teach me to never give up to keep trying no matter what and if people talked about me don't listen to them they just jealous of me because they can't be me. My mother was always there for me when I would tell her that people would always leave my life and I don't even know why I've always been there for them and they just leave and act like I don't exist but my mom said "don't trip people come and go there gonna realize that no is there for them like you were there gonna come back wanting you back and it's your choice if you want them back" but the thing is they didn't come back. It's cool though I don't trip I got my mother and that's all I need without her I don't know what I would do. I feel like my brother and me don't really get along well because we're missing a piece of love from our father and I know we should love each other and be very close because our father not really there for us. I feel like if our father was there for us and showed us love then we would be closer because we would be very happy. All I want is for my dad to show us love we're missing his love but I bet when he realizes that we needed his love it will be to late. Why does he have to be like this he puts his wife before his kids that shouldn't happen at all it should be kids before anything or else why have kids. My dad only picks us up when he feels like it it's not fair if he gonna be acting like that then maybe we shouldn't go with him at all but then I wanna see him because he my dad.
I've been through a lot made lots for mistakes and learned a lot when my parents got a divorce through the years I matured a lot. I will forever love my mother more than my father because my mother always there for me when I need her and my father was never really there when I needed him. I don't even know what a father really does because he wasn't acting like a father if he did I bet my life would of been different I wouldn't be that sad. Sometimes I just sit a think about my father sometimes I need him and I want him but I'm scared to tell him I'm scared he gonna reject me that he won't want to listen to me. Each holiday It gets to me because my parents are not together and I either have to go half day with my dad and after stay with my mom or just stay with my mom it sucks because I get double gifts on Christmas and on my Birthday it sounds cool but it's really not. I wish I didn't have to have Christmas, Thanksgiving and My Birthday and other holidays without my parents I mean there still there but I wish they were still together so it wouldn't feel like how it feels right now. Things happen for a reason so I guess it was better off that my dad left because or else he would just be hurting us over and over even though he said he wasn't gonna do it his mistake anymore. He did it twice what do you think my mom was gonna forgive him after he did his mistake again and he promised he wasn't gonna do it anymore. My father really bad a keeping promises because he promised us that he was gonna take us to lake Tahoe and to Disney but he never did he can't keep promises my mom was the one who took us and even now he keeps saying but I don't believe him till he actually takes us.
