Prohibited Love ( ongoing )

Prelude

Maraming rason para Hindi siya mahalin ...
First of , magpinsan kami ..
I know people with shallow minds worked ...
Kahit Hindi nila alam ang buong storya ay huhusgahan ka nila sa kung ano ang makita ng mga mata nila ...
They didn't tried to back read the story hoping that their conclusions are wrong.

I admit that it was incest feeling these for him ..
God knows how much I've tried not to love him !
Lumayo ako sakanya ....
I kept on pushing him but I ended on pulling him into my life again cause he is my life ...
I can't imagine my life without him ..
I can't afford on losing him but I can't do anything since our love is Prohibited ...

I keep on thinking million reasons why I shouldn't love him back but I did not know that it only takes one reason for me to stay and love him ..

Were both wreck on this terrible situation ...
I'm wounded of loving him but I know that he's the only one who could cure my wounds ..
He's my cause and cure ...
Without him I would fade away ...
I only want to be kissed by him ..
I only want his hugs and soothing words ...
I only want him just for myself ...

I want to tell it to the world ..
But I can't ....
Our love isn't right !
Kahit ito ang alam kong pinakatamang gawin , para sa mata ng iba mali .....

Ilang beses sumagi sa isipan ko na tumakas kami at magpakalayo-layo ..
I want to run away with him ..
I want to wake up with him holding me in his arms and looking at me like I'm the only one that matters to him ..

I want to be selfish ..
I want to fight for us ..

There are many things that I want to risk and sacrifice for him ..
For our love ....

But I just simply can't ...
Fighting for him means breaking our families ...
I can't afford breaking my parents heart ...
And I can't stand shattering my best friend's love and trust for me ..
She and Rigid are the wonderful things that happened in my life ..
I can't afford to lose them both ...
I would sacrifice my own heart and happiness just to keep them both ..

There are many times that I'd cried and had ask God why me ??
Do I really deserved to be this wreck ?
But then I thought ...
Why not me ??
He happened into my life and I'm contented that I met him ...
That he came into my life and shared me the blissful and brief moments in his life ..
I wouldn't ask for more ...
I must keep on welcoming the lemons life keep on throwing at me ..
Hindi ako sanay pero sinasanay ko ang sarili ko ..
After all these are the consequences of loving him ...
Of loving a cousin .

I'm Bea Venice Espinosa ...
And I'm in love with Rigid dysprosium Hui --- my cousin ...