Thoughts

1.

To my loved one I write
Yes you are my missing piece

Yes you understand my every heart beat
But baby I don't understand why
There is this something
A sort of a fog, a mist, a shadow
It doesn't let u and me truly meet

No I don't say that we do not connect
Physically and emotionally
I give u me and u give me u
But we still remain in our seprate cocoons somehow

I wish for the first time for so much
And wish for a future where I can say us
But my heart is scared
It fears the unseen flare
I want to shoot the negative air

And no I don't doubt you
I don't doubt me
But honey explain to me why the extasy that I feel
Vanishes and becomes a sudden death

Is this what loves feels like to all
I do not know
But I know that I want a forever with you if there could be one
And my love
I wish to give all I have
Only all this confusion
It holds me back

I'm not saying I don't want you
I want every inch of you
Oh how I love your eyes
Your smell, your lips
Your musky voice that makes my knees weak

But darling tell me why
I feel like I might get hit by a rock
I fear losing you so much

By now you might be thinking
I don't know what she means
But tell just one thing
Do u feel like the rain
Is pouring over you
Only it's acid and not water
And the clouds grow darker
When u do not talk to me
When we can't meet

To my love I write
U made me feel emotions so strong
Your look makes me skip a beat or two
And all I hope truly is you feel the same

My love I just want to say
These words are what my heart feels
And no I don't mean bad
But help me I plead and beg
Help me stand up be the true myself
And if u leave me I can say one thing for sure
That my love my heart will be like a broken mirror
In which I will see only glimpses
Of a past that I miss
A present I hate
And a future filled with me and my loneliness