BABY AVA

Before The Tragedy...Part 1 (listen to the song while reading :)

   I listened to the music quietly as it played. I was looking out my window at the busy streets below me. I adored the way the cars moved in different directions making these cool movable like patters. Me and my boyfriend Mark always thought that was cool. I remember us sitting in this room ,him with a glass of red wine and me with a mug that read 'NEW YORK' that contained hot green tea. I didn't drink.  We would try to guess the life stories of each car driver and whoever came up with the best story would choose what we would have for dinner. Mark would always win. His imagination always made my heart race.

  Me and Mark met in a weird way. We were both at a wine tasting party. I was just there for the Crackers and cheese. At the time I was not financially stable at the time because I was fresh out of high school and still trying to figure out what I want to go to college for. So I really didn't have any money to buy me something to eat. I'm pretty sure I ate almost all the  food but I was still very hungry. Mark noticed me not touching the wine but eating all of the crackers and cheese. He walked over towards me. He asked me if the wine tasted horrible because he noticed I haven't touched any. I replied saying no I'm pretty sure its good but I just don't drink alcohol. He looked at me and started smiling very hard. His teeth were perfect and at that moment I fell In love. I never was the type of girl that fell in love instantly. But that night, I fell in love with Mark. I looked at him like he was a cracker and a piece of the white cheddar cheese. He looked at me and said he didn't drink either. So I was confused. So why is he here? I guess he read my mind because he answered my question. He looked me in my eyes and said he seen me walk in and he thought I was drop dead beautiful so he followed me. I couldn't believe him because I always had very low self-esteem and always saw myself as an fat, ugly, natural black woman who loved watching anime. I was so surprised that someone as handsome as mark would find me attractive. I started laughing very loudly in his face. People started looking at me with annoyed faces. He also started laughing. I stopped laughing because it wasn't no longer funny now. Why are you laughing I asked him. He came closer to me and said he thinks its soo funny how a beautiful woman could not know how beautiful she really is.  After that moment we both clicked. And I felt a click so meant to be.

  I continued listening to the music playing. I got up and walked over to the doors that led to my balcony. I stood on the balcony. The music was playing in my ears. The music was the only thing I could hear, see, feel, and even taste. I was about to jump. But then....I saw Marks face. He smiled the same smile I seen when we first met. Then I opened my eyes. I walked back inside the condo. I walked into my bed room and grabbed Marks coat. The one he always wore. The one I gave him three years ago. It smelled of him. I dropped to the floor with the coat in my hands. I started crying. The tears came rushing out of my soul. I missed him so badly. Why didn't you let me jump mark?!!!!!! I screamed. Why did you leave me?!!!!!  My heart hurts mark!!!! It hurts so bad!!!!!  I stood up and walked over to my dresser where a picture of mark and me standing in the rain sat. Just give me a sign to let me know your okay. I'm so alone Mark. I need someone. Something.  I walked back to the closet to put away Marks coat. A Thick box looking thing fell out. I picked it up. It was wrapped in brown looking paper with a green sparkly bow wrapper around it. I undid the bow than un wrapped the paper. It was a black box. Inside there was two books. Passports. Vietnam. one had my name and the other had Marks name. There was a piece of paper that fell out of mine. It read "Dear Anna I know how much you want to go to Vietnam and maybe live there. So since I love you way too much...I decided you were right. we are gonna start exploring the world and we are gonna start at Vietnam. We are going to be staying for three whole weeks!. Love ya." I started shaking. I couldn't believe this. I then opened the box. inside was a silver ring with a red diamond on the top. I fell to my knees. Then I look on the ground where I put the letter and the passports. on the back of the letter which I didn't think about, read "oh yeah...I almost forgot ladybug...Please for the life of me ...Will you marry me? Since I know you love me very much, I already know your answer." I put the ring on my finger. I looked up to the ceiling. I couldn't cry anymore. I didn't feel the need to cry. I just asked Mark to show me a sign and he just did. I smiled. "yes I will marry you!" I said. I looked at the passport. I'm going to Vietnam. Not only for mark...but for the both of us.